Best of
Death

2019

The Remarkable Journey of Coyote Sunrise


Dan Gemeinhart - 2019
    That's how long Coyote and her dad, Rodeo, have lived on the road in an old school bus, crisscrossing the nation. It's also how long ago Coyote lost her mom and two sisters in a car crash. Coyote hasn’t been home in all that time, but when she learns the park in her old neighborhood is being demolished - the very same park where she, her mom, and her sisters buried a treasured memory box - she devises an elaborate plan to get her dad to drive 3,600 miles back to Washington state in four days...without him realizing it. Along the way, they'll pick up a strange crew of misfit travelers. Lester has a lady love to meet. Salvador and his mom are looking to start over. Val needs a safe place to be herself. And then there's Gladys.... Over the course of thousands of miles, Coyote will learn that going home can sometimes be the hardest journey of all...but that with friends by her side, she just might be able to turn her “once upon a time” into a “happily ever after”.

Auē


Becky Manawatu - 2019
    Auē can be heard in the sound of the sea he loves and hates, and in the music he draws out of the guitar that was his father’s. It spills out of the gang violence that killed his father and sent his mother into hiding, and the shame he feels about abandoning his eight-year-old brother to a violent home.But Ārama is braver than he looks, and he has a friend and his friend has a dog, and the three of them together might just be strong enough to turn back the tide of sorrow. As long as there’s aroha to give and stories to tell and a good supply of plasters.Here is a novel that is both raw and sublime, a compelling new voice in New Zealand fiction. Haere mai, Becky Manawatu.

A Matter of Death and Life


Irvin D. Yalom - 2019
    But never had he faced the need to counsel himself until his wife, esteemed feminist author Marilyn Yalom, was diagnosed with cancer. In A Matter of Death and Life, Marilyn and Irv share how they took on profound new struggles: Marilyn to die a good death, Irv to live on without her.In alternating accounts of their last months together and Irv's first months alone, they offer us a rare window into facing mortality and coping with the loss of one's beloved. The Yaloms had numerous blessings--a loving family, a Palo Alto home under a magnificent valley oak, a large circle of friends, avid readers around the world, and a long, fulfilling marriage--but they faced death as we all do. With the wisdom of those who have thought deeply, and the familiar warmth of teenage sweethearts who've grown up together, they investigate universal questions of intimacy, love, and grief.Informed by two lifetimes of experience, A Matter of Death and Life is an openhearted offering to anyone seeking support, solace, and a meaningful life.

In Waves


A.J. Dungo - 2019
    With his passion for surfing uniting many narratives, he intertwines his own story with those of some of the great heroes of surf.

Am I Guilty?


Jackie Kabler - 2019
    The next, everything came crashing down around me. They said it was my fault. They said I’m the worst mother in the world. And even though I can’t remember what happened that day, they wouldn’t lie to me. These are my friends, my family, people I trust. But then why do I have this creeping sensation that something is wrong? Why do I feel like people are keeping secrets? Am I really as guilty as they say? And if I’m not, what will happen when the truth comes out…?

The Hot Young Widows Club: Lessons on Survival from the Front Lines of Grief


Nora McInerny Purmort - 2019
    Her life fell apart. What Nora discovered during this dark time is that, when you’re in these hard moments, it can feel impossible to feel like even a shadow of the person you once were. People will give you all sorts of advice of how to hold onto your sanity and sense of self. But how exactly? How do you find that person again? Welcome to The Hot Young Widows Club, Nora’s response to the toughest questions about life’s biggest struggles. The Hot Young Widows Club isn’t just for people who have lost a spouse, but an essential tool for anyone who has gone through a major life struggle. Based on her own experiences and those of the listeners dedicated to her podcast, Terrible, Thanks for Asking, Nora offers wise, heartfelt, and often humorous advice to anyone navigating a painful period in their lives. Full of practical guidance, Nora also reminds us that it’s still okay to laugh, despite your deep grief. She explores how readers can educate the people around them on what to do, what to say, and how to best to lend their support. Ultimately, this book is a space for people to recognize that they aren’t alone, and to learn how to get through life’s hardest moments with grace and humor, and even hope.

Down With the King of the South


Diamond D. Johnson - 2019
    She’s well known throughout Miami, but most know her as Giovonni “Trip's” girlfriend and baby mama. They have a ghetto love story. The two of them had been together for almost twenty years. They have a love that most people would ask Jashae just how the hell does she do it? Not because love is hard, but because Trip is in prison serving a life long sentence, for a murder that he committed years ago. Then, you have Toddrick King, known in the streets as “Miami.” Women will pretty much sell their souls to be with a man like Miami. Not only is he a well-known retired boxer, but he’s handsome, rich, and he knows how to treat a woman. Two things are stopping Miami and Jashae from being together, and that’s Jashae’s love for Trip and because Miami and Trip were once friends. Then, we have Mahogany, Jashae's best friend. Such a beautiful woman, with such an ugly soul. Mahogany can literally have any man in the world that she wants, but she’s not too fond of falling in love. Well, that’s until she meets Miami’s cousin, Jabari. Will Jabari be able to change Mahogany’s outlook on love? Does Jabari even want love himself to change Mahogany’s mind on such a thing? Although this is a love story, it’s deep; it’s sad; it’s dark, it’ll make you question why certain things happen in life. For Jashae, one would think that losing her boyfriend to the system was the worst thing that could happen to her, but who would have ever thought that something else would happen in her life that would make that situation seem minor?

Igniting Ivy


Samantha Christy - 2019
    It's what I do.It's the only thing I've ever wanted to do.Then I meet her — the girl with the sad eyes.She's lost everything. Twice.And I know she's using me to forget her past.Just when things seem perfect, that past threatens with the unimaginable.They may call me a hero.But she's the one person I can't save.Igniting Ivy can be read as a standalone romance. It is book one in a series that follows a group of firefighters.

That Good Night: Life and Medicine in the Eleventh Hour


Sunita Puri - 2019
    Sunita Puri knew from a young age that the gulf between her parents' experiences and her own was impossible to bridge, save for two elements: medicine and spirituality. Between days spent waiting for her mother, an anesthesiologist, to exit the OR, and evenings spent in conversation with her parents about their faith, Puri witnessed the tension between medicine's impulse to preserve life at all costs and a spiritual embrace of life's temporality. And it was that tension that eventually drew Puri, a passionate but unsatisfied medical student, to palliative medicine--a new specialty attempting to translate the border between medical intervention and quality-of-life care.Interweaving evocative stories of Puri's family and the patients she cares for, That Good Night is a stunning meditation on impermanence and the role of medicine in helping us to live and die well, arming readers with information that will transform how we communicate with our doctors about what matters most to us.

Salt in My Soul: An Unfinished Life


Mallory Smith - 2019
    Despite the daily challenges of endless medical treatments and a deep understanding that she'd never lead a normal life, Mallory was determined to "live happy," a mantra she followed until her death. Mallory worked hard to make the most out of the limited time she had, graduating Phi Beta Kappa from Stanford University, becoming a cystic fibrosis advocate well-known in the CF community, and embarking on a career as a professional writer. Along the way, she cultivated countless intimate friendships and ultimately found love.An eloquent writer, Mallory recorded her thoughts and observations for more than ten years about struggles and feelings too personal to share during her life, leaving instructions for her mother to publish her work posthumously. She hoped that her writing would offer insight to those living with, or loving someone with, chronic illness.What emerges is a powerful and inspiring portrait of a brave young woman who did not allow herself to be defined by disease. Her words offer comfort and hope to readers, even as she herself was facing death. Salt in My Soul is a beautifully crafted, intimate, and poignant tribute to a short life well lived--and a call for all of us to embrace our own lives as fully as possible.

Demetri


Crystal Daniels - 2019
    Those sacrifices meant nothing after uncovering his father's dark secrets and his ex-wife's lies, and betrayal. Looking to rebuild what was taken from him, Demetri sets his sights on Montana, where his path collides with a feisty, headstrong woman who unintentionally ignites a spark he thought had been extinguished forever. Glory - Putting her life on hold, Glory dedicated two years to helping her best friend and Goddaughter escape the clutches of evil. Now with the threat dead and her friend safe, Glory feels like she can finally move on with her life. So, she thought. With one day bleeding into the next Glory finds herself feeling lost and hollow inside. Until Demetri Volkov enters her life again. Demetri is King of the criminal underworld, and when Glory gets caught in a war between two Mafia Empires - taken and used by his enemies as leverage to get what they want; he does the only thing he can. He kills. Showing no mercy, and leaving a path of destruction, Demetri proves he will stop at nothing to get her back.

Finding Meaning: The Sixth Stage of Grief


David Kessler - 2019
    Decades later, she and David Kessler wrote the classic On Grief and Grieving, introducing the stages of grief with the same transformative pragmatism and compassion. Now, based on hard-earned personal experiences, as well as knowledge and wisdom earned through decades of work with the grieving, Kessler introduces a critical sixth stage. Many people look for “closure” after a loss. Kessler argues that it’s finding meaning beyond the stages of grief most of us are familiar with—denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance—that can transform grief into a more peaceful and hopeful experience. In this book, Kessler gives readers a roadmap to remembering those who have died with more love than pain; he shows us how to move forward in a way that honors our loved ones. Kessler’s insight is both professional and intensely personal. His journey with grief began when, as a child, he witnessed a mass shooting at the same time his mother was dying. For most of his life, Kessler taught physicians, nurses, counselors, police, and first responders about end of life, trauma, and grief, as well as leading talks and retreats for those experiencing grief. Despite his knowledge, his life was upended by the sudden death of his twenty-one-year-old son. How does the grief expert handle such a tragic loss? He knew he had to find a way through this unexpected, devastating loss, a way that would honor his son. That, ultimately, was the sixth state of grief—meaning. In Finding Meaning, Kessler shares the insights, collective wisdom, and powerful tools that will help those experiencing loss. Finding Meaning is a necessary addition to grief literature and a vital guide to healing from tremendous loss. This is an inspiring, deeply intelligent must-read for anyone looking to journey away from suffering, through loss, and towards meaning.

The Star Outside My Window


Onjali Q. Raúf - 2019
    She's waiting -- I can feel it. I just have to find her in time, that's all ... Because when I do, I'll know the truth about who stole her. ' Told through the innocent voice of a child, this is a story that celebrates the power of hope and resilience, from the author of The Boy at the Back of the Class.On her tenth birthday, Aniyah makes a wish -- a wish for her mum. After school that same day, Aniyah and her brother are rushed out of school and driven far, far away.So Aniyah sets out to find out the truth -- about the wish and about what happened to her mother. And in doing so she ends up on an adventure she never could have foreseen...one that involves a very clever squirrel, a homeless man named Harry, the Royal Observatory at Greenwich, and the biggest star in Hollywood...

What Is Given from the Heart


Patricia C. McKissack - 2019
    "Misery loves company," Mama says to James Otis. It's been a rough couple of months for them, but Mama says as long as they have their health and strength, they're blessed. One Sunday before Valentine's Day, Reverend Dennis makes an announcement during the service-- the Temples have lost everything in a fire, and the church is collecting anything that might be useful to them. James thinks hard about what he can add to the Temple's "love box," but what does he have worth giving?

The Line Tender


Kate Allen - 2019
    If she ever wants to lift the cloud of grief over her family and community, she must complete the research her late mother began. She must follow the sharks.Wherever the sharks led, Lucy Everhart’s marine-biologist mother was sure to follow. In fact, she was on a boat far off the coast of Massachusetts, preparing to swim with a Great White, when she died suddenly. Lucy was eight. Since then Lucy and her father have done OK—thanks in large part to her best friend, Fred, and a few close friends and neighbors. But June of her twelfth summer brings more than the end of school and a heat wave to sleepy Rockport. On one steamy day, the tide brings a Great White—and then another tragedy, cutting short a friendship everyone insists was “meaningful” but no one can tell Lucy what it all meant. To survive the fresh wave of grief, Lucy must grab the line that connects her depressed father, a stubborn fisherman, and a curious old widower to her mother’s unfinished research. If Lucy can find a way to help this unlikely quartet follow the sharks her mother loved, she’ll finally be able to look beyond what she’s lost and toward what’s left to be discovered.

No Happy Endings


Nora McInerny Purmort - 2019
    We lose love, lose jobs, lose our sense of self. For Nora McInerny, it was losing her husband, her father, and her unborn second child in one catastrophic year.But in the wake of loss, we get to assemble something new from whatever is left behind. Some circles call finding happiness after loss “Chapter 2”—the continuation of something else. Today, Nora is remarried and mothers four children aged 16 months to 16 years. While her new circumstances bring her extraordinary joy, they are also tinged with sadness over the loved ones she’s lost.Life has made Nora a reluctant expert in hard conversations. On her wildly popular podcast, she talks about painful experiences we inevitably face, and exposes the absurdity of the question “how are you?” that people often ask when we’re coping with the aftermath of emotional catastrophe. She knows intimately that when your life falls apart, there’s a mad rush to be okay—to find a silver lining, to get to the happy ending. In this, her second memoir, Nora offers a tragicomic exploration of the tension between finding happiness and holding space for the unhappy experiences that have shaped us.No Happy Endings is a book for people living life after life has fallen apart. It’s a book for people who know that they’re moving forward, not moving on. It’s a book for people who know life isn’t always happy, but it isn’t the end: there will be unimaginable joy and incomprehensible tragedy. As Nora reminds us, there will be no happy endings—but there will be new beginnings.

Everybody Died, So I Got a Dog


Emily Dean - 2019
    It was never home for the dog Emily craved. Emily shared the lively chaos with her beloved older sister Rachael, her rock. Over the years the sisters bond grew ever closer. As Rachael went on to have the cosy family and treasured dog, Giggle, Emily threw herself into unsettled adventure - dog ownership remaining a distant dream. Then, tragically, Rachael is diagnosed with cancer. In just three devastating years Emily loses not only her sister but both her parents as well. This is the funny heart-breaking, wonderfully told story of how Emily discovers that it is possible to overcome the worst that life can throw at you, that it's never too late to make peace with your past, and that the right time is only ever now, as she finally starts again with her very own dog - the adorable Shih-tzu named Raymond.

An August Harvest


Ben Marney - 2019
    He was living the American dream: a beautiful wife and child, a gorgeous home, a booming business and great friends. And then...in 2.8 seconds...his entire life shattered into small pieces before his eyes. All that remained of his once fairytale life was his fading faith, fractured heart, his dog, Charley and the painful, lingering question of...what now? To answer that question, Charley takes Grant on a twisted journey to an inexplicable coincidence, where he finds love, tragedy and murder on his search for a new life.

The Phone Booth in Mr. Hirota's Garden


Heather Smith - 2019
    . . and his voice. The entire village is silenced by grief, and the young child's anger at the ocean grows. Then one day his neighbor, Mr. Hirota, begins a mysterious project—building a phone booth in his garden. At first Makio is puzzled; the phone isn't connected to anything. It just sits there, unable to ring. But as more and more villagers are drawn to the phone booth, its purpose becomes clear to Makio: the disconnected phone is connecting people to their lost loved ones. Makio calls to the sea to return what it has taken from him and ultimately finds his voice and solace in a phone that carries words on the wind.The Phone Booth in Mr. Hirota's Garden is inspired by the true story of the wind phone in Otsuchi, Japan, which was created by artist Itaru Sasaki. He built the phone booth so he could speak to his cousin who had passed, saying, "My thoughts couldn't be relayed over a regular phone line, I wanted them to be carried on the wind." The Tohoku earthquake and tsunami in 2011 destroyed the town of Otsuchi, claiming 10 percent of the population. Residents of Otsuchi and pilgrims from other affected communities have been traveling to the wind phone since the tsunami.

Pie in the Sky


Remy Lai - 2019
    School is torture, making friends is impossible since he doesn’t speak English, and he's often stuck looking after his (extremely irritating) little brother, Yanghao.To distract himself from the loneliness, Jingwen daydreams about making all the cakes on the menu of Pie in the Sky, the bakery his father had planned to open before he unexpectedly passed away. The only problem is his mother has laid down one major rule: the brothers are not to use the oven while she's at work. As Jingwen and Yanghao bake elaborate cakes, they'll have to cook up elaborate excuses to keep the cake making a secret from Mama.Told in prose and graphic novel elements, this middle-grade novel is about a boy's immigration experience, his annoying little brother, and their cake-baking hijinks!

This for That


Bella Jewel - 2019
    You’re heartless. You’re sick. You’re really damned twisted. Do you know that? Nope… Still doesn’t cut it. Dear Fate…yeah, that’s the one. Dear Fate, What the actual hell? What exactly did I do to deserve the life you paved for me? Did I bother you so? Was I awful? Did I not pray enough? You took my life into your hands, fate, and you twisted it. You turned it into a broken mess, and you made it ugly. You made meugly. A life for a life. An eye for an eye. That’s how it goes, right? Her life. Now mine. Someone is coming for me, but you already know that, don’t you fate? Did you plan it? Did you even try to tell them it wasn’t my fault? That it was an accident? That I didn’t mean for it to happen? Or is this part of your sick and twisted plan? I have one last question, fate, before you go… Have you got a hero for me? Because I’m going to need one.

Maybe Tomorrow?


Charlotte Agell - 2019
    She's been dragging it around for a long time. Norris dances everywhere he goes, even uphill. He is always surrounded by a happy cloud of butterflies. Can Norris and his butterflies help ease Elba's sadness and convince her to join them on a trip to the ocean? This tender exploration of loss illuminates how kindness, empathy, and friendship can lift our spirits and see us through many tomorrows. It will resonate with anyone who has experienced hardship or grief, from the death of a loved one or a pet, to a friend moving away, or the transition to a new home or family situation.

After All


Heidi McLaughlin - 2019
    Desperate to move forward, Brooklyn has focused on raising her daughter for the past fourteen years. But when the opportunity comes along to renovate the old Driftwood Inn, Brooklyn knows it’s time to go home.But it won’t be easy. For one, Austin’s best friend, Bowie Holmes, still lives in Cape Harbor. Brooklyn hasn’t quite been able to forget him: not since the night they spent together—the same night they both lost Austin. Separated by tragedy and guilt, they’re brought together by the Driftwood project. And as they rebuild the inn, they discover they’re also rebuilding something else.Brooklyn’s always been desperate to move on, not knowing that she first needs to reconcile past transgressions. She can’t forget, but she can forgive—Austin, Bowie, and herself—on her way toward long-awaited happiness.

Pres


Jaxson Kidman - 2019
    After UNLoved. After UNTamed. Comes ... the Rulz. Their stories. Their words. This is what happens after the wild ending to UNTamed. Up first: PRES.

No Greater Love: A Biblical Walk Through Christ's Passion


Edward Sri - 2019
    Only a few followed him to Calvary. What will you do? No Greater Love is a biblical pilgrimage that reveals Christ’s amazing love for us. Best-selling author Edward Sri guides you through the last hours of Christ's life. You will walk step-by-step with Jesus from the Garden of Gethsemane to the Mount of Calvary. Every step of the way, Old Testament prophecies, messianic expectations, biblical symbolism, and historical context shed light on the mystery of Christ's suffering and death. Experience a deeper understanding and appreciation of God’s immeasurable and unconditional love as you draw closer to Jesus than you ever have before.

The Nine


Terry Cloutier - 2019
    This is a gratifying story of trauma and vengeance, brilliantly told." - BookLife.com Nine men ride into the tiny farming village of Corwick one morning in early March. When they ride back out again, no one is left alive except for Hadrack, a helpless eight-year-old boy. The crimes committed by those nine men will ultimately bring two conflicting religions and two nations to the brink of war. But for Hadrack, caught in the middle and unsure of his allegiances, all that matters is the vow that he made to his murdered family. Hadrack won’t be a helpless boy forever and, when he is ready, the nine will pay for what they did, regardless of the cost. This is his story.

Once More We Saw Stars: A Memoir


Jayson Greene - 2019
    She is immediately rushed to the hospital. Once More We Saw Stars begins with this event, leading the reader into the unimaginable.But although it begins with the anguish Jayson and his wife Stacy confront in the wake of their daughter’s trauma and the hours leading up to her death, it quickly becomes a narrative that is as much about hope and healing as it is about grief and loss. Jayson recognizes, even in the very midst of his ordeal, that there will be a life for him beyond it—that if only he can continue moving forward, from one moment to the next, he will survive what seems un-survivable.With raw honesty, deep emotion, and exquisite tenderness, he captures both the fragility of life and absoluteness of death, and most important of all, the unconquerable power of love. This is an unforgettable memoir of courage and transformation—and a book that will change the way you look at the world.

My Jasper June


Laurel Snyder - 2019
    The sky is blue, the sun is blazing, and the days brim with possibility. But Leah feels. . . lost. She has been this way since one terrible afternoon a year ago, when everything changed. Since that day, her parents have become distant, her friends have fallen away, and Leah’s been adrift and alone.Then she meets Jasper, a girl unlike anyone she has ever known. There’s something mysterious about Jasper, almost magical. And Jasper, Leah discovers, is also lost. Together, the two girls carve out a place for themselves, a hideaway in the overgrown spaces of Atlanta, away from their parents and their hardships, somewhere only they can find.But as the days of this magical June start to draw to a close, and the darker realities of their lives intrude once more, Leah and Jasper have to decide how real their friendship is, and whether it can be enough to save them both.

Birdsong


Julie Flett - 2019
    But when she meets an elderly woman artist who lives next door, named Agnes––her world starts to change.Katherena and Agnes share the same passions for arts and crafts, birds, and nature. But as the seasons change, can Katherna navigate the failing health of her new friend?Award-winning author and artist Julie Flett’s textured images of birds, flowers, art, and landscapes bring vibrancy and warmth to this powerful story, which highlights the fulfillment of intergenerational relationships, shared passions, and spending time outdoors with the ones we love.Includes a glossary and pronunciation guide to Cree words that appear in the text.

Ten Hours


Melissa Toppen - 2019
    And all I wanted was more.More seconds.More minutes.More hours.More him.Ten hours…Such a small, insignificant amount of time.Yet those ten hours changed everything.

The Undying


Anne Boyer - 2019
    For a single mother living paycheck to paycheck who had always been the caregiver rather than the one needing care, the catastrophic illness was both a crisis and an initiation into new ideas about mortality and the gendered politics of illness.A twenty-first-century Illness as Metaphor, as well as a harrowing memoir of survival, The Undying explores the experience of illness as mediated by digital screens, weaving in ancient Roman dream diarists, cancer hoaxers and fetishists, cancer vloggers, corporate lies, John Donne, pro-pain ”dolorists,” the ecological costs of chemotherapy, and the many little murders of capitalism. It excoriates the pharmaceutical industry and the bland hypocrisies of ”pink ribbon culture” while also diving into the long literary line of women writing about their own illnesses and ongoing deaths: Audre Lorde, Kathy Acker, Susan Sontag, and others.A genre-bending memoir in the tradition of The Argonauts, The Undying will break your heart, make you angry enough to spit, and show you contemporary America as a thing both desperately ill and occasionally, perversely glorious.

The Irish Don's Black Beauty: Part Two


Rose Marie - 2019
    That one mistake has caused him countless restless nights and many days of savagery. Ready to end this misery he puts his foot down to at least find her and give her a proper resting place. With dozens of people having reached out with information of where her body is buried, only to have been met with a ruthless end for their deceit. Tired and fed up on what would have been his Beauty's twenty-second birthday a tip comes in that rocks not only him but his entire organization.

Will My Cat Eat My Eyeballs? And other Questions about Dead Bodies


Caitlin Doughty - 2019
    In Will My Cat Eat My Eyeballs?, best-selling author and mortician Caitlin Doughty answers the most intriguing questions she’s ever received about what happens to our bodies when we die. In a brisk, informative, and morbidly funny style, Doughty explores everything from ancient Egyptian death rituals and the science of skeletons to flesh-eating insects and the proper depth at which to bury your pet if you want Fluffy to become a mummy. Now featuring an interview with a clinical expert on discussing these issues with young people—the source of some of our most revealing questions about death—Will My Cat Eat My Eyeballs? confronts our common fear of dying with candid, honest, and hilarious facts about what awaits the body we leave behind.

When You Touch Me


Monica Walters - 2019
    Dayton Gauthier experiences this first-hand when his wife of almost thirty years dies suddenly. Trying to come to grips with what happened and moving on with his life has proven to be harder than he ever imagined. Once his three adult children help him to see that his life is worth living after his wife’s death, he seems to be doing well… until a year later when a woman catches his attention. She not only catches his attention, but she keeps it, holding it hostage. But Dayton still finds it difficult to move on because he’s at war with his heart and his flesh. Ladonna Owens has lived a peaceful life for years and that’s mainly because she shut her family out. Because they were the source of her depression, abuse, and hostility, she chose to move away and not deal with any of them anymore. Being a professional singer afforded her a life that she could live comfortably. Because of her victimization, it made her heart hard toward men. She became somewhat selfish… taking what she desired sexually and moving on. However, that approach didn’t work for Dayton Gauthier. She realizes immediately that there is something between them and tries to prove herself worthy of his affection, but the insecurities of her past rear their ugly heads. Dayton and Ladonna have demons to overcome before than can fully explore a relationship with anyone, let alone each other. But each other is who they want. Will Dayton be able to overcome his grief to pursue a relationship with Ladonna? Can Ladonna trust Dayton long enough to entertain more than a physical connection?

Sorry For Your Loss


Jessie Ann Foley - 2019
    He’s barely passing his classes. He lets his longtime crush walk all over him. And he’s in no hurry to decide on a college path. The only person who ever made him think he could be more was his older brother Patrick, the family’s golden child. But that was before Patrick died suddenly, leaving Pup with a family who won’t talk about it and acquaintances who just keep saying, “sorry for your loss.”But when Pup excels at a photography assignment he thought he’d bomb, things start to come into focus. His dream girl shows her true colors. An unexpected friend exposes Pup to a whole new world, right under his nose. And the photograph that was supposed to show Pup a way out of his grief ultimately reveals someone else who is still stuck in their own. Someone with a secret regret Pup never could have imagined.

A Map Into the World


Kao Kalia Yang - 2019
    "Paj Ntaub, a young Hmong American girl, spends a busy year with her family in their new home and seeks a way to share the beauty of the world with a grieving neighbor"--

The Space We're In


Katya Balen - 2019
    His brother Max is five. Max only eats foods that are beige or white, hates baths, and if he has to wear a t-shirt that isn't gray with yellow stripes he melts down down down. Frank longs for the brother he was promised by his parents before Max was born--someone who was supposed to be his biggest fan, so he could be the best brother in the world. Instead, Frank has trouble navigating Max's behavior and their relationship. But when tragedy strikes, Frank finds a way to try and repair their fractured family and in doing so learns to love Max for who he is. In her debut novel, Katya Balen uses her knowledge of autism and experience working with autistic people to create an intriguing and intense yet always respectful family story.For readers of Counting by 7s and The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime.

How to Make Friends with the Dark


Kathleen Glasgow - 2019
    It’s dark in your house, dark in your room, and dark in your heart. You feel like the darkness is going to split you apart.That’s how it feels for Tiger. It’s always been Tiger and her mother against the world. Then, on a day like any other, Tiger’s mother dies. And now it’s Tiger, alone.Here is how you learn to make friends with the dark.

Awakening


Pepper Pace - 2019
    But this is an all-too real world where black Appalachians use roots to heal the sick and a curse or ‘the evil eye’ can doom a person. And now their all-black society, built on colorism, mysticism, and ignorance, has been infiltrated by a white man and all of the mysteries and secrets surrounding them as well as him are soon to be discovered. Warning: Graphic sex, graphic language, racist language, racist actions. This book is for adult readers only.

Callum's Hell


V.F. Mason - 2019
     She was a florist. He was a serial killer. She created beauty. He created chaos. She belonged to nature. He belonged to the underworld. She was an angel. He was the devil. She wanted to escape. He trapped her instead. They played a dangerous game with their lives at stake. Where the winner took it all and the loser burned in hell. Warning: 18+ due to sexual content, profanity, abuse, graphic violence, and adult subject matter.

Right as Rain


Lindsey Stoddard - 2019
    In fact, no one does—Rain buried her secret deep, no matter how heavy it weighs on her heart.When her mom suggests moving the family from Vermont to New York City, Rain agrees to the plan. But she couldn’t have imagined how different life in the big city would be. She’s never seen so many people squished together in one place in her entire life—or felt more like an outsider. With her mom and dad fighting more than ever and the anniversary of Guthrie’s death approaching, Rain is determined to keep her family together, and her big secret close to her heart.But even Rain knows that when you bury things deep, they grow up twice as tall.Ann M. Martin, New York Times bestselling author of Rain Reign, called Just Like Jackie “a lovely story of acceptance.” Stoddard has once again crafted a pitch perfect middle grade novel worthy of being called an instant classic. Fans of Sara Pennypacker and Lisa Graff will fall in love with the pluck and warmth of Stoddard’s latest heroine and the strength that even a small heart can lend.

The Art of Dying Well: A Practical Guide to a Good End of Life


Katy Butler - 2019
    Packed with extraordinarily helpful insights and inspiring true stories, award-winning journalist and prominent end-of-life speaker Katy Butler shows how to thrive in later life (even when coping with a chronic medical condition), how to get the best from our health system, and how to make your own “good death” more likely. This handbook of step by step preparations—practical, communal, physical, and sometimes spiritual—will help you make the most of your remaining time, be it decades, years, or months. Butler explains how to successfully age in place, why to pick a younger doctor and how to have an honest conversation with her, when not to call 911, and how to make your death a sacred rite of passage rather than a medical event. This down-to-earth manual for living, aging, and dying with meaning and even joy is based on Butler’s own experience caring for aging parents, as well as hundreds of interviews with people who have successfully navigated a fragmented health system and helped their loved ones have good deaths. It also draws on interviews with nationally recognized experts in family medicine, palliative care, geriatrics, oncology, hospice, and other medical specialties. Inspired by the medieval death manual Ars Moriendi, or the Art of Dying, The Art of Dying Well is the definitive update for our modern age, and illuminates the path to a better end of life.

Out to Find Freedom


Lila Rose - 2019
    They surround me. Hold me hostage, refusing to let go. But I want to survive. Want to fight. I just don’t know if I have it in me. Maybe dying would be better. It’s the break in the shadows that gives me hope. When I look at him, all I can see is light. So now I’m out to find freedom. Private investigator Ryan Warden doesn’t know he’s moved next door to people he would put behind bars in an instant. Nor does he realise a sleepless night could lead him on the right track with the case he’s working on. He certainly doesn’t expect Emerson Spence. What he does know is he has to stay away from her. She’s been beaten and broken. She deserves to live freely while learning and experiencing things in life like any young woman should. He’s too old for her. It’s better to stay away. If he can. Author's note: Out to Find Freedom starts out intense and dark, then moves into a very slow burn romance. It’s also set six months after No Way Out (Stoke and Malinda’s story from the Hawks MC: Ballarat Charter) but it can be read as a standalone. Warning, triggers may occur 18+

Trace


Pam Crooks - 2019
    When his quest for justice fails, he leaves Texas to head north, but he never expects an outlaw's baby along the way. Morgana Goldwater needs to be needed. After she endured a terrible tragedy, she lives in a narrow, protected world. When Trace needs help caring for the baby girl, she is quick to take them both into her heart and into her life. But their troubles return, and Trace and Morgana must face their past to keep loving the little girl--and each other--in their future. Sweet Romance. #kindleunlimited

The Irish Don’s Black Beauty: Part One


Rose Marie - 2019
    The object of her affection...not so much. She loved his quiet, subdued and nerdy persona. She dreamed of playing in his fiery red hair, and she wanted nothing more than for him to love her back. Little did she know that underneath the quiet and mysterious exterior of Connor O’Shea was a death dealing crime boss and heir to an Irish mob. It was meant to be nothing more than a pity date. That’s all. How did it turn into complete obsession? How did this girl who was neither his type nor in his league bring him to his knees? Love? Never wanted it. Peace? Overrated! Anything that brought emotional attachment was not apart of his agenda, so why would he be willing to change course for anyone.... let alone her.

Baby Mine


Kennedy Fox - 2019
    Gorgeous. Feisty.I was captivated.But it didn’t matter because when she walks out of my best friend’s bedroom half naked, I know I’ve lost my chance.Now we’re roommates and constantly fighting about our living arrangements. Though we argue about everything, I can’t stop thinking about her in all the wrong ways. I should move out so I can finally get over her, but the selfish part of me can’t let go.When tragedy strikes, we’re left to deal with it together. Instead of pushing her away, I pull her closer.Just as we come to terms with our new reality, she reveals a life changing event that affects us both.And I’m left to make the hardest decision of my life—remain friends or confess my feelings and risk it all.BABY MINE is book 1 in the Hunter & Lennon duet and must be read first.

The Way Back To Me


Anne Mercier - 2019
    The book DOES end on a cliffhanger. My life was charmed. I had the best friends ever. We were known as the Fab Five and our futures were planned out.In a flash, everything was taken from me. I don’t know how to live without them. I don’t want to.I’m broken.When I get to college, I see him.Cameron Stone. Mr. Football. Mr. Popular. He’s definitely hot, but on the inside he’s vile. He made my childhood a living nightmare. I don’t know why he hates me or why he’s suddenly being so nice to me. All the sweet talk in the world won’t work. I know better.So, why am I listening?

Beyond Words


Abby Brooks - 2019
    Please.I know better than to trust strangers with candy, but, after a tequila-fueled night, I create a new email address and do just that.…and the man I discover is overflowing with kindness and humor and depth.Meanwhile, I meet Lucas Hutton—a Marine with scars covering his body, heart, and soul.The chemistry between us is a force of nature.His intensity leaves me reeling.I can’t have them both.I have to choose between them before things go too far.I just don’t know how I can. Beyond Words is a standalone contemporary romance. Get ready for an unconventional love triangle with no cheating and a guaranteed happily ever after!

A Beginner's Guide to the End: Practical Advice for Living Life and Facing Death


B.J. Miller - 2019
    “There is nothing wrong with you for dying,” hospice physician B.J. Miller and journalist and caregiver Shoshana Berger write in A Beginner’s Guide to the End. “Our ultimate purpose here isn’t so much to help you die as it is to free up as much life as possible until you do.” Theirs is a clear-eyed and big-hearted action plan for approaching the end of life, written to help readers feel more in control of an experience that so often seems anything but controllable. Their book offers everything from step-by-step instructions for how to do your paperwork and navigate the healthcare system to answers to questions you might be afraid to ask your doctor, like whether or not sex is still okay when you’re sick. Get advice for how to break the news to your employer, whether to share old secrets with your family, how to face friends who might not be as empathetic as you’d hoped, and how to talk to your children about your will. (Don’t worry: if anyone gets snippy, it’ll likely be their spouses, not them.) There are also lessons for survivors, like how to shut down a loved one’s social media accounts, clean out the house, and write a great eulogy. An honest, surprising, and detail-oriented guide to the most universal of all experiences, A Beginner’s Guide to the End is “a book that every family should have, the equivalent of Dr. Spock but for this other phase of life” (New York Times bestselling author Dr. Abraham Verghese).

The Irish Don's First Christmas


Rose Marie - 2019
    except on the holidays. Being married to a ruthless killer and mob boss like Conner O'Shea doesn't make winter a jolly season. He sees no reason to celebrate such a meaningless holiday. Though with the encouragement... or more like persistence of their very assertive seven-year-old the Don goes on a small journey to get in the Christmas spirit. Join the Don's Don in this Short Novella as he gets in the Christmas Spirit the O'Shea way. **Disclaimer** This book contains a time skip and will contain many new characters that are in books to be released 2020 ****TRIGGER WARNING**** The following content contains sensitive topics that may trigger some such as: Child Abuse, Torture, Injury, Mental Illness, Suggestive Behavior, and different sexual orientations such as BDSM, Homosexuality, Swingers, Etc. Read at your own discretion

Mr. Vega


Xyla Turner - 2019
    Vega I didn't want this woman to be my nanny. She had no experience and a failed art career. What did she know about rearing children? She was my late wife's choice and I didn't too much care for the woman and she didn't care for me either. Until all hell broke loose and the nanny was the only one my son could turn to. The only one we could rely on. She kept us going and then she wanted to leave too. Not a damn chance. Faith There could never be anything between me and Mr. Vega. He was the father of the boy in my charge. I was his nanny. Nothing more and nothing less. The lines needed to be clear between him and me, but a nagging feeling told me, he would keep them blurred. --Note: This is a standalone book, but it does have cameos from other series.

A Killer's Confession: And a mother's fight to bring her daughter, Becky Godden-Edwards', murderer to trial


Karen Edwards - 2019
    On what would have been my daughter's 29th birthday, Detective Superintendent Stephen Fulcher knocked on the door and told me my beautiful Becky was dead. Found buried in a shallow grave in a remote field, Becky had been brutally murdered.'When Becky Godden-Edwards was killed, her mother Karen awoke to a world where the truth was never guaranteed; where taxi driver Christopher Halliwell got away with murder and the police officer who found her daughter was punished instead. This is Karen's story. Despite unimaginable tragedy, her love for her daughter has been unbreakable: from her despair through Becky's troubled teenage years, to the agonising eight years when Becky was missing, and then the dramatic story of how a killer's confession led to a terrible discovery. The one constant has been Karen's determination to fight for Becky, tirelessly campaigning for the truth about what happened to be heard and for Halliwell to face the consequences of his evil actions. *The murders of Becky Godden-Edwards and Sian O'Callaghan will soon be the focus of major new ITV series A Confession starring Martin Freeman as Stephen Fulcher and Imelda Staunton as Karen Edwards*

Another Life


K.L. Shandwick - 2019
    With little choice in the matter, Cole has to face living another life...A very different life to the one he thought he and Grace had planned. A Single parent second chance romance following Cole's inspirational journey through grief and loss. 'Another Life is a beautifully constructed story of Cole Harkin trying to rebuild his life when fate deals him the best thing in his life and the cruelest blow at the same time.''WARNING - must have Kleenex to read this book. From the opening pages to the very last chapter I was on an emotional roller coaster that made me ugly cry. A heart wrenching storyline and beautifully written characters make this book a masterpiece.'

Shallow


Cora Kenborn - 2019
    She warned me she'd ruin me. I should've listened.Instead, I sacrificed my future for her and then spent seven years hating her for it. Now a scandalous fall from grace has landed her at my feet.Under my command.It's time to unleash the payback I've always craved.Unfortunately, revenge doesn't taste as sweet as the woman I vowed to destroy.Change of plans. I want more than her pain. I want her everything.Warning: These characters have major flaws. You are NOT meant to swoon over them at first. They do bad things. However, they're human. They fail, they learn, and they do better. Perfection is a myth. This is real.

The Unwinding of the Miracle: A Memoir of Life, Death, and Everything That Comes After


Julie Yip-Williams - 2019
    What began as the chronicle of an imminent and early death became something much more--a powerful exhortation to the living.That Julie Yip-Williams survived infancy was a miracle. Born blind in Vietnam, she narrowly escaped euthanasia at the hands of her grandmother, only to flee with her family the political upheaval of her country in the late 1970s. Loaded into a rickety boat with three hundred other refugees, Julie made it to Hong Kong and, ultimately, America, where a surgeon at UCLA gave her partial sight. She would go on to become a Harvard-educated lawyer, with a husband, a family, and a life she had once assumed would be impossible. Then, at age thirty-seven, with two little girls at home, Julie was diagnosed with terminal metastatic colon cancer, and a different journey began.The Unwinding of the Miracle is the story of a vigorous life refracted through the prism of imminent death. When she was first diagnosed, Julie Yip-Williams sought clarity and guidance through the experience and, finding none, began to write her way through it--a chronicle that grew beyond her imagining. Motherhood, marriage, the immigrant experience, ambition, love, wanderlust, tennis, fortune-tellers, grief, reincarnation, jealousy, comfort, pain, the marvel of the body in full rebellion--this book is as sprawling and majestic as the life it records. It is inspiring and instructive, delightful and shattering. It is a book of indelible moments, seared deep--an incomparable guide to living vividly by facing hard truths consciously.With humor, bracing honesty, and the cleansing power of well-deployed anger, Julie Yip-Williams set the stage for her lasting legacy and one final miracle: the story of her life.

Jailbait


Kristin Coley - 2019
    Sloan Spencer was trouble with a capital T. Too young, too innocent, and too damn beautiful. She was also alone and damn near defenseless except for the kitten claws she somehow thought would save her.Taking her home to the club is a cluster waiting to happen, I know it, and she knows it, but I can't stop myself. Our fates were sealed the second I saw the bruises covering her body. She's mine now and God help anyone who tries to take her from me.Warning: Violence, language, and possible triggers.If you love outlaws who live by their own code and will do anything to protect the women in their lives, you'll love the bad boys of Southern Rebel MC.Each book is a full-length standalone with recurring characters and all books are set in the Southern Rebel MC world.

The Golden Pecker


Penelope Bloom - 2019
    Hell, I never planned to meet her. But her grandfather’s will changes everything. That, and the shockingly intimate to-do list he left for us. Landon I’ve known about Andi Wainwright my whole life. Until now, I’d done a damn good job of keeping my distance. No photos. No social media. But that changed when I learned about the old man’s death. I had the misfortune of being his business partner, and now the keys to my future are tangled up in his ridiculous will. First, I had to personally bring Andi down to his club, The Golden Pecker to show her some mysterious video. I may be in the dark about what’s going on, but I know one thing: I don’t care what’s on that tape. Nothing is going to change the fact that Andi Wainwright is the enemy.

Her Stand-in Fake Fiancé (An Older Brother's Best Friend's Romance Series)


Cindy Roland Anderson - 2019
    He knows she’s off-limits. What happens if they break all the rules? Presley Windsor is preparing for the new season of American Ninja Champions, leaving her zero time for anything as frivolous as a boyfriend. When someone posts a picture of her trying on a diamond ring with a mystery man, they assume she’s getting engaged. Instead of telling the public it was all a misunderstanding, Presley’s publicist decides this is the perfect launch for her career and confirms the engagement. Things escalate quickly, and the network wants to reveal her fiancé on national TV, leaving Presley scrambling to find someone to play the role long enough for the special to air. Kade Hunter is her brother’s best friend and makes Presley breathless just looking at him. She’s secretly crushed on him, never dreaming he might have a thing for her too. When he volunteers to be her fake fiancé, Presley keeps reminding herself he’s doing it as a favor to her brother. Everything changes after they kiss under the mistletoe, leaving Presley hoping the magic of Christmas will bring her a real fiancé after all.

Owen and the Soldier


Lisa Thompson - 2019
    Only Owen understands how important he is. At home, Owen and his mum are struggling and there's nobody he can talk to. Hidden away in the park, Owen feels free to be himself. When the war-weary soldier is listening, his worries slip away. But nobody else cares about the soldier, and the town council want to tear him down. Owen's the only one who can save him but can he find the courage to speak up before it's too late? A touching story of loss and remembrance from Lisa Thompson, the award-winning author of The Goldfish Boy. Particularly suitable for struggling, reluctant or dyslexic readers aged 8+

MVP


Rachel Van Dyken - 2019
     I was the golden boy. America's Quarterback. I was everything to everyone. Always available. Solid. I can remember how something felt wrong that day. And I haven't been able to get that feeling to go away. Not when I buried my child. Not when my fiancé looked at me like I'd been the reason for it all. Not when I look in the mirror and scream at the top of my lungs. Football kept me sane. But I've lost everything. And then I got a phone call. She was in an accident. She remembered nothing. A gentleman wouldn't fight for her, wouldn't remind her of the pain. So, I let her go. I let her live her happily ever after and I took all the darkness, all the pain, all the anger. Only, the universe had a sick sense of humor. She bumped into me. She pursued me. The beautiful woman I used to call mine. She said she wanted to make me smile. She didn't know she's the reason I stopped.

Only if You let Me


Monica Walters - 2019
    Ansley Malveaux surely thought her life was perfect. Being married with three beautiful kids, and a job she loved, was the life she'd always dreamed of. Unfortunately, after seven years, her marriage had become just that - a failure. Learning to navigate through her new life as a single mother is exhausting and takes her on an emotional journey she isn't ready for, especially after meeting Jayden Young. Fear of moving on has her frozen in space, but Jayden is threatening to melt her heart at every turn. Being in love with a woman that isn't in love with him is the worst feeling ever for Jayden Young. Ansley has put him in the friend zone and he's patiently waited for her to change her mind. His whole mission is to help her rebuild her trust in men and love, by showing her he's trustworthy to handle her fragile heart. As if life doesn't have enough challenges of its own, Ansley and Jayden find themselves in avoidable situations. Situations that, if they would only be true to themselves and each other, wouldn't arise. Ansley pushes against Jayden's every attempt at loving her, and at some point, wonders if he'll ever grow tired of her rejection. Will they finally work through the fears that cripple their blossoming relationship and threaten to dismantle their friendship? Or will they choose to stop fighting for love and let their fears prevail?

Cato's Heart: a Standalone Novella


Phoenix Daniels - 2019
     How do you live when you know you're going to die? Rebecca King had a broken heart, literally. Congenital Heart Disease has given her less than a year to live. Hopefully, that'll be enough time to complete every task on her bucket list. However difficult, she finally comes to terms with her imminent demise. Then fate delivers an unexpected distraction. Due to a horrific accident that left his wife on life support, Nick Cato, narcotics investigator, is trapped behind a wall of loneliness and grief. However, he had no way of knowing that destiny would deliver a gift strong enough to quell the sadness. But will he allow guilt to keep him from embracing his happy ending?

Check Mates


Stewart Foster - 2019
    But the thing is, I’m not a problem child at all. I’m just a child with a problem. Felix is struggling at school. His ADHD makes it hard for him to concentrate and his grades are slipping. Everyone keeps telling him to try harder, but no one seems to understand just how hard he finds it. When Mum suggests Felix spends time with his grandfather, Felix can’t think of anything worse. Granddad hasn’t been the same since Grandma died. Plus he’s always trying to teach Felix boring chess. But sometimes the best lessons come in the most unexpected of places, and Granddad soon shows Felix that there’s everything to play for.

Highgate (This Haunted World #3)


Shani Struthers - 2019
    In Book Three discover Highgate, perhaps the most famous cemetery in the world, renowned for its Victorian Gothic splendour, famous residents, its vampire and, of course, ghosts... NB: With sometimes harrowing scenes, this is her darkest novel yet and not for the faint-hearted!Lucy Klein, 42, is not only obsessed with Highgate, she works there too, organising tours for those with an interest in some of the finest Victorian funerary architecture in existence. Single, and on the shy side, she is nonetheless content with her life, or so she thinks. When she meets the enigmatic Zak Harborne, she realises what she's been missing and quickly falls in love. He's everything she's ever wanted...isn't he? 1972, and Emma Matthews, a 19-year-old history student, also feels as though she's on the outside. After visiting a derelict Highgate with a group of friends, she starts to feel a connection, a sense of meaning to her life, in amongst the tombstones, the crosses and the angels. Returning to Highgate over and over, she discovers both a paradise and a garden decidedly more savage.Grace Derby is just 11 when she encounters the gentleman, tall and with a tall hat, a long black coat and a cape about his shoulders. It is the 1850s and street urchins such as her are not accustomed to kindness from those belonging to the upper echelons. Proffering money for food, for her and her family, he asks nothing in return. Curious about the man with the kind blue eyes, she follows him one day... all the way to Highgate.For some, it seems, all roads lead to Highgate...

Best of Me


L.K. Farlow - 2019
    Growing up, she had it all: our parent's unyielding approval, perfect grades, a permanent spot at the popular table, and the attention of the hottest guy ever--Duke Kincaid.After eighteen years of living in her shadow, I couldn't wait to escape--to finally be my own person. Yet here I am, I'm back in my hometown, once again in Valorie's shadow. Only now, it's eternal.I had life all planned out: join the force, marry Valorie Parsons, and start a family of our own. I have the job, but the girl and all my dreams died before my very eyes.At the urging of my friends, I agree to a blind date. Imagine my shock when I arrive and find, Valorie's twin sister, waiting across the table from me. Mallory should be a reminder of all that I've lost, but instead she feels like my redemption . . . like maybe life's giving me a second chance.But, how can I be enough for her when I've already given her sister the best of me?

The Second Chance Billionaire Boss


Taylor Hart - 2019
    When he arrives at the island for a fundraising business conference, the last person he expected to run into was the woman who broke his heart six years ago. Needing space from her ex and time with her young son, Violet Moon has the perfect summer plans—a three-month position on the beautiful tropical Coconut Island. Plan A is ruined when she runs into the man who tried to stop her wedding six years before—the man she’s tried unsuccessfully to forget. Her new Plan B is to avoid him, which she thinks she can pull of because he’s only on the island for a week. Too bad he blackmails her into a date! After a moonlit swim, a day sailing with Violet and her son, and the infamous date, Nash finds himself falling for the woman he was convinced he could never have. Can they let go of the pain of the past and believe in second chances? Or will she slip away from him again?

The Other Half of Happy


Rebecca Balcárcel - 2019
    Unsplit. Not half white or half Latina. But that was before her Guatemalan cousins moved to town and before her dad asked her to speak some Spanish. Now her continents are splitting apart. Let’s face it, when you’re named after Spain’s most famous loser, Don Quixote, you might make a secret escape plan. Join Quijana as she earns to make a tortilla, comes of age in the Guatemalan-American hyphen, and discovers her missing half. Chronicle brings us poet Rebecca Balcárcel's middle grade novel about a biracial girl who's navigating between the Anglo and Guatemalan sides of her family, a burgeoning crush and a cool new friend, and trying to figure out what's going on with her little brother, who is becoming remote and hard to reach, all while trying to determine just who she is.

When We Say Goodbye


Michelle Vernal - 2019
    Desperately in need of something to fix, Ellie has to find a project and when her grandparents old house is put up for sale, she jumps at the chance. Because, like Ellie, the house is broken. And if she can fix the house, then surely, it's just a matter of time before she and Sam are back on their path to happily-ever-after... In life, when the worst happens how do you pick up the pieces? A heart-breaking story of love, loss and the path to forgiveness, perfect for fans of Faith Hogan and Amanda Prowse. To be read with tissues.

The Bravest Man in the World


Patricia Polacco - 2019
    So his grandfather decided to tell him a story to show how much of an impact music can have. When he was a child growing up poor in Ireland, his mother made sure he learned to play the fiddle, despite their challenges. After his mother passed away and he was on his own, Jonathan’s grandfather fell asleep hiding in a mail sack and was taken to a ship. When he woke up, he realized he was on the Titanic on its maiden voyage, and it was there that he met Wallace Hartley and Mrs. Weeks, a kind man and woman who took him in. Then one night, the majestic ship hit an iceberg. He and Mrs. Weeks were put on a lifeboat—and Mr. Hartley and his band bravely continued to play to calm the crew and passengers. The story of Wallace Hartley is true and he is known throughout the world as a hero. The New York Times bestselling author and illustrator of The Keeping Quilt Patricia Polacco offers this stunning and heartbreaking picture book to celebrate the memory and bravery of a single man who used the power of music to comfort thousands of people during a catastrophic situation.

Rapture


N.N. Britt - 2019
    He is a spoiled rock idol. The only thing they have in common is a flashy tabloid headline. Or so they think. Running away from her tragedies and the demise of her marriage, Hazel Alexander retreats to a friend’s Lake Tahoe cabin with big plans to drown her memories in bottles of wine. Being dragged into someone else’s messy, high-profile divorce is not what she needs. Especially if that someone else is Justice Cross, the frontman of the popular rock band The Deviant.Born into a family of rock royalty, Justice lives his life fast and easy. When he comes across Hazel while at a local bar, his gallant attempt to get her home safely takes a complicated turn. A PR nightmare forcing Justice and Hazel to spend time together triggers unexpected and intense feelings between the two. With the constant attention of fans, haters, and press, now it’s up to Hazel and Justice whether they want to fight for their relationship or end it once and for all.

Maysen Jar Box Set


Devney Perry - 2019
    This box set includes: THE BIRTHDAY LIST Poppy Maysen carries a journal in her purse. Its pages were filled long ago by a man who craved adventure, lived life to the fullest and never failed to make her laugh. The journal is his birthday list—one she vows to complete. She’ll do the things he wanted to do most. Because maybe, just maybe, if she can finish his list, she can start to live again. Poppy expects going through the birthday list will be hard. She expects it to hurt. But what she doesn’t expect is Cole. Could the man who watched her heart shatter be the one to put it back together again? LETTERS TO MOLLY Molly Alcott didn’t expect to open her mailbox one summer morning and find an old letter stuffed between bills and a supermarket flyer. Penned in familiar handwriting, dated over fifteen years ago, the letter was written to Molly after her first date with the man she’ll never forget. Week after week, new letters appear. Each marks an event in the history of their epic love affair. Each heals a wound. Each holds the confession of the man who still owns Molly’s heart. The letters are full of promise, hope and love, but truth be told, Molly wishes she could unread them all. Because the man who wrote these letters is not the one sending them.

My Darkest Prayer


S.A. Cosby - 2019
    A former Marine and Sheriff's deputy, Nathan has built a reputation in his small Southern town as a man who can help when all other avenues have been exhausted. When a local minister with grandiose ambitions is found dead, Nathan is approached by his parishioners who feel the local police are dragging their feet with the investigation. What starts out as an easy payday soon descends into a maze of mayhem filled with wannabe gangsters, vicious crime lords, porn stars, crooked police officers and a particularly treacherous preacher and his mysterious wife. Nathan must use all his varied skills and some of his wit to navigate the murky waters of small town corruption even as dark secrets of his own threaten to come to the surface.

Standstill


Nicole Dykes - 2019
    Over the years, they’ve learned to lean on each other and keep going. But there’s a huge difference between moving forward and merely standing still.

Broken Beats - An Illusion Series Novel


D. Kelly - 2019
    This is not the life I would have chosen, but it’s the hand I’ve been dealt. I love my daughter. I loved Belle. I’m not interested in more heartache. Relationships are a thing of the past.Until I meet her - She’s the awakening I desperately need, but one I’m not sure I deserve. Haddie Everything happens for a reason. Time heals all wounds. You’re too young to give up on love. They say that, but they’re wrong. My world crumbled when my fiancé died. Then I met him – He’s flawed in the same ways.Broken in the same places. Scared of the same things.He looks at me like I’m his salvation. And I want to be, but an open heart means risking a broken one. Broken Beats is the second spin off novel of The Illusion Series. This book can be read as a stand-alone novel but the characters from the previous books do intersect and there will be spoilers from the earlier books.

Lark


Anthony McGowan - 2019
    To escape, they go for a walk on the moors, taking their little Jack Russell terrier with them.But what should have been a laugh, a lark, turns deadly when the weather changes and they are caught in a blizzard. Nothing will ever be quite the same again...

The First Lights


Christy Pastore - 2019
    Nearly two years after I received the phone call that changed my life forever, we’re living in a new town and facing new opportunities. All I want is to be a strong parent for my son and build a good life. I’m still fighting to figure out how to be okay. Falling for someone? Not in the cards for me. I had my happily ever after. Until he appears. One look from the ex-NFL player turned high school football coach brings my soul to life. But the man tests my patience with his arrogance. He knows how to manage his players and his students, but he needs a major ego adjustment. Every night when my eyes close, I tell myself there’s no way I’ll fall for Wyatt Hamilton, I can’t . . . he’s my son’s new coach. Wyatt She’s the last thing that I expected. But I’m drawn to her. When she stepped onto my field with her long sexy legs, arms covered in tiny geometric tattoos, dark hair and her perfect kissable lips—she stoked a fire inside me. I never dreamed that I’d feel that spark again. Hannah Richman understands my anguish and emotional turmoil, because she’s been through the same hell. Wanting her is taboo—forbidden. She’s the mother of one of my students. No matter how much I crave her . . . there’s no way I can have her, it would be inappropriate. We’re about to redefine that word.

Damien's Promise


Vic Tyler - 2019
    Welcome to our corner of the underworldwhere everything you love can and will be usedto destroy you.*****She didn't just fall into the lap of the most ruthless criminal organization.She crashed our party.Bruised, battered, and broken - this innocent soul begged us to shed blood on her behalf.For justice.Retribution.Vengeance.Sweet, pure Adriana is the angel who was prepared to die for her revenge.And I'm the demon who was raised to live for mine.When I look at her, I see everything I didn’t have to lose.I see my last chance at redemption.She doesn't belong in my world, and I'll free her if it's the last thing I do.Even if it means destroying everything she loves.***************************************The VENGEANCE Trilogy is a dark romance series (with strong suspense/thriller themes).Each book is NOT a standalone (cliffhanger alert).Other themes: crime, mercenary, (loosely) mafia, forbidden love, coming of age, revenge**This book contains adult content intended for mature readers, including but not limited to graphic violence, potential triggers, and explicit sexual content.**

Bad Guys Finish First: The Sandman and the Librarian


T.C. Clark - 2019
     The Sanctuary Series: Book One The Sandman and The Librarian were from different sides of the war, but they carried the same kind of gun. He was a man known for his stealth kills. She was a woman who'd never missed a target. Together they were invincible or so they thought. When the Sanctuary is exposed and deadly secrets are revealed will they chose each other over survival? One never knows when killers are involved...

Pay Attention, Carter Jones


Gary D. Schmidt - 2019
    And ultimately, when his burden of grief and anger from the past can no longer be ignored, Carter learns that a burden becomes lighter when it is shared.

Goodbye to Goodbyes: A True Story About Jesus, Lazarus, and an Empty Tomb


Lauren Chandler - 2019
    He knew how sad it is when someone dies. Jesus cried when his friend, Lazarus, died. But he did something at his friend’s tomb that changed everything. He showed that he came to give his friends life in the land that lies after our dying.In this vivid, moving and exciting retelling of the story of Lazarus, Lauren Chandler helps children understand how Jesus makes all the difference to death. Children will see that because Jesus rose from death, he has power over it and all who believe in him will also rise, just as Lazarus did.The author, Lauren Chandler, used the story of Lazarus to help her own children come to terms with her husband’s (Matt Chandler) brain tumor. Whether children are coming to terms with the illness or death of a loved one, or simply fearful of when that day might come, this book reassures them with the amazing truth that Jesus came to to say goodbye to goodbyes—forever.

Christmas on Breakers Point


Chautona Havig - 2019
     Mallory Barrows has one last Christmas with her uncle. She’s determined to make it the best one he’s ever had. She knows when she asks what he wants as his final gift, it won’t be a tie or a new mug. He won’t need those where he’s going, and he’s quite happy about that. Mallory just didn’t think he wanted a miracle wrapped in paper and tied with a shiny red bow! Christmas on Breakers Point is the introductory book to the Independence Islands Series.

Grandpa's Top Threes


Wendy Meddour - 2019
    Mom says to just give him time. But Henry wants to talk to Grandpa now. So Henry tries his favorite game: Top Threes. And something amazing happens: Grandpa starts talking again. Out of a tale of favorite sandwiches and zoo animals, outings and trains, emerges a moving story about love, loss, and the wonder of grannies and grandpas.

The Moon Is Always Round


Jonathan Gibson - 2019
    In The Moon Is Always Round, seminary professor and author Jonathan Gibson uses the vivid imagery of the moon to explain to children how God’s goodness is always present, even when it might appear to be obscured by upsetting or difficult circumstances. In this beautiful, two-color illustrated book, he allows readers to eavesdrop on the conversations he had with his young son in response to his sister’s death. Father and son share a simple liturgy together that reminds them that, just as the moon is always round despite its different phases, so also the goodness of God is always present throughout the different phases of life. A section in the back of the book offers further biblical help for parents and caregivers in explaining God’s goodness to children. Jonathan Gibson reminds children of all ages that God’s goodness is present in the most difficult of times, even if we can’t always see it.

Embracing the Unknown: Life Lessons from the Tibetan Book of the Dead


Pema Chödrön - 2019
    With Embracing the Unknown, Pema Chödrön delves into the teachings of this extraordinary Buddhist text—not only for what it tells us about the journey of the soul beyond this life, but also as a source of profound wisdom for navigating the uncertainty we face each day in "the bardo of this life." In this landmark appearance recorded live at the Omega Institute, Pema explores the universal mystery of life, death, and rebirth, including:• What is the bardo? How any state between an ending and a beginning gives us an unparalleled opportunity for transformation • What is rebirth? Pema takes a deeper look at this concept and how it also occurs in our moment-to-moment experience • Can we let go? Guidance for honoring the difficult emotions of fear, sadness, and grief with an open and curious heart • How can we prepare? Meditation techniques and everyday practices for befriending change, groundlessness, and the unknown • What can we really know about death? Why the teachings of The Book of the Dead are valuable no matter what you believe"Death isn’t just something that happens at the end," teaches Pema. "Life is continually arising, dwelling, ceasing, and arising. It’s a cycle that goes on every day, and continues to go on forever." Featuring insightful Q&A sessions with a live audience, Embracing the Unknown invites you to explore the most daunting and liberating truth of our human experience—guided by Pema Chödrön’s hallmark blend of insight, humor, and fearless love.

The President Sang Amazing Grace: A Book About Finding Grace After Unspeakable Tragedy


Zoe Mulford - 2019
    Singer/songwriter Zoe Mulford was so moved that she wrote the song “The President Sang Amazing Grace,” which was then illustrated by filmmaker and painter Jeff Scher for a video that has been viewed countless times. This book presents the lyrics to the song, Scher’s paintings, excerpts from Obama’s eulogy, biographies of those who were killed, historical context, and sheet music.

My Pretties


Jeff Strand - 2019
     A serial kidnapper is preying upon women. He abducts them, then locks them in one of the cages dangling from the ceiling in a soundproofed basement. There, he sits quietly and just watches them, returning night after night, hoping he'll be in the room at the moment his beautiful captives finally starve to death. Charlene and Gertie have become fast friends at the restaurant where they work. But Charlene is concerned when she hears how her co-worker spends her evenings: Gertie's cousin is one of the missing, and Gertie wanders the city streets where many of the abductions took place, using herself as bait with a high-voltage stun gun in her pocket. Charlene reluctantly offers to trail her in a car, just in case she does lure the kidnapper and things go wrong. Unfortunately, the women find themselves the source of unwanted fame. And now they're on the radar of a very, very dangerous man...

Seven Letters


Sinéad Moriarty - 2019
    And after she falls pregnant, she promises Izzy that the arrival of a baby brother will make their family complete. So when she collapses a few months later, the safe happy life Izzy knows is shattered.With Sarah's future, and the future of her pregnancy, in their hands, her husband and sister disagree fiercely about her treatment. The once close family starts to fall apart.The clock is ticking, and the doctors need a decision. Can those who love Sarah get beyond the fog of grief and anger to figure out what's for the best? Can they ever forgive each other for the decisions they make? Will Izzy lose everything she knows and loves?

Corrupt Bodies: Death and Dirty Dealing in a London Morgue


Peter Everett - 2019
    In just six years he'd gone from lowly assistant to running the UK's busiest murder morgue. He couldn't believe his luck.What he didn't know was that Southwark, operating in near-Victorian conditions, was a hotbed of corruption. Attendants stole from the dead, funeral homes paid bribes, and there was a lively trade in stolen body parts and recycled coffins.Set in the fascinating pre-DNA and psychological profiling years of 1985-87, this memoir tells a gripping and gruesome tale, with a unique insight into a world of death most of us don't ever see. Peter managed pathologists, oversaw post-mortems and worked alongside Scotland Yard's Murder Squad - including the case of the serial killer, the Stockwell Strangler. This is a thrilling tale of murder and corruption in the mid-1980s, told with insight and compassion.

Pretend She's Here


Luanne Rice - 2019
    Lizzie Porter was lively, loud, and fun -- Emily's better half. Emily can't accept that she's gone.When Lizzie's parents and her sister come back to town to visit, Emily's heartened to see them. The Porters understand her pain. They miss Lizzie desperately, too.Desperately enough to do something crazy.Something unthinkable.Suddenly, Emily's life is hurtling toward a very dark place -- and she's not sure she'll ever be able to return to what she once knew was real.From New York Times bestselling author Luanne Rice comes a breathless, unputdownable story of suspense, secrets -- and the strength that love gives us to survive even the most shocking of circumstances.

Cherish and Simon: The First Year


Eva Morian - 2019
    A momentous occasion which garners joy, unconditional love, and sleepless nights. There is nothing in the world to fully prepare new parents for the responsibility of a new, little life. But, not every birth is joyous or easy. There is a fine line between beautiful life and untimely death during the delicate process. For Simon Gabot, his joy was taken as his wife, Emily, took her last breath giving birth to their son. What should’ve been tears of happiness were replaced with mourning. Down the hall, giving birth to her daughter, was Cherish Montgomery. She watched her boyfriend walk out of the room, never to return. Homeless and scared with the threat of losing her child, Cherish must rely on Simon, who she’d only met once with Emily, to help her. With emotions running high, these strangers must find peace amidst their personal turmoil and sudden life-changing circumstances. The first year of parenthood is one the hardest. They will find a way to navigate through emotions, death, and raising two babies who need them. There is no choice or redo button, life will continue with or without them. On top of the stress from social norms and familial issues for this blended household, Cherish and Simon will have to trust one another, find themselves, and, perhaps, discover a way to love again.

The Light at Dawn


K.L. Montgomery - 2019
     It wasn’t just her marriage that crumbled in the wake of unspeakable tragedy, it was her entire life. Even though five years had passed since she lost Evan, Angelia White was still picking up the pieces. Getting involved in a cause she could pour her broken heart into was just another part of the healing process. The wounds were too fresh for Mark Lyon to keep his grip on reality. Everything he thought he knew and believed was obliterated when he lost Ashleigh, along with his heart. The only way he could pick up the pieces was to fight for a way to prevent any other parent from ever suffering such merciless pain. Two heartbroken parents enduring the darkest of nights. Two wounded souls waiting for the light at dawn. Authors Note: Contains sensitive subject matter that may be upsetting to some readers.

Sing it, Sam


Jennifer Ryder - 2019
    But how can Jane write the perfect romance when she’s never experienced love?After a lengthy stay in hospital, budding singer and songwriter Sam Marshall ends up as a resident in Willow Creek Nursing Home. Jane soon becomes his guiding light. But how can he be a man for her when he relies on so many others day-to-day?Will Sam turn out to be the perfect muse to help Jane write her epic romance? Will Jane be the one to teach Sam how to truly live? Does love truly know no barriers?Coming February 2019.

The Priests We Need to Save the Church


Kevin Wells - 2019
    From scores of insightful interviews with modern priests, exorcists, seminary formators, and even disillusioned laity, Wells here draws forth a blueprint for priestly holiness that can once again fill our Church with priests abounding with sincere, supernatural faith, on fire with God s love, and moved by the irresistible impulse to save souls, no matter the cost to themselves.Reading this book will deepen your own faith and help you understand what all priests, by their vocation, are consecrated and called to be. Giving a copy to your parish priest will help him and encourage him as he strives to become a member of the small but growing contingent of holy priests we need.

Predators


Michaelbrent Collings - 2019
     Evie Childs hoped the all-expense-paid trip to Africa would give her a chance at adventure. Maybe it would even let her forget a past that haunts her, and find safety from a husband who abuses her. Her jaws can crush bone to powder... But when a group of "freedom fighters" kidnaps her safari tour group, intent on holding them for ransom, the adventure turns to nightmare. She knows no mercy, only hunger... Now, Evie and the rest of the survivors must travel across miles of the harshest, most dangerous environment on Earth. No food. No water. No communications. And they're being hunted. She is the only animal alive who laughs as she hunts... A pack of Africa's top predators have smelled the blood of the survivors, and will not stop until they have fed. Because in this place, you can be either one of the prey, or one of the... ... PREDATORS

Death Wins a Goldfish: Reflections from a Grim Reaper's Yearlong Sabbatical


Brian Rea - 2019
    Until he gets a letter from the HR department insisting he use up his accrued vacation time, that is. In this humorous and heartfelt book from beloved illustrator Brian Rea, readers take a peek at Death's journal entries as he documents his mandatory sabbatical in the world of the living. From sky diving to online dating, Death is determined to try it all! Death Wins a Goldfish is an important reminder to the overstressed, overworked, and overwhelmed that everyone—even Death—deserves a break once in a while. If you enjoyed Brian Rea's work in Mary Karr's The Liars' Club: A Memoir or in the New York Times' popular Modern Love column you'll love his delightful illustrations of Death in this funny, heartfelt collection of works.This book is a great gift or self-purchase if you're looking for:Funny BooksFunny ComicsHumor Books

Unleashed (Synful Syndicate #1)


Xavier Neal - 2019
     Those are the rules of survival. Those are the rules of their home. Those are the rules when I step foot into The Diamond as her prized fighter. Her beast. Her pet. I want the leash off but need her love to guide me. To heal me. To free me. (Unleashed is a DARK ROMANCE and the first in a standalone series of novels that can be read in any order.)

Circle of Deceit: An Interracial Romance Standalone


Kasey Martin - 2019
    An erotic tale laced in sensuality and sprinkled with unbridled desire. Lust brought them together but will deceit pull them apart? This is an unconventional love story with unorthodox themes. Reader discretion is advised.

Silent Night Suspect


Sharee Stover - 2019
    A gun in her hand. A cartel leader’s dead body in front of her. Widow Asia Stratton can’t remember what happened—just that she’s been framed. The only way to prove her innocence is to work with her ex-sweetheart, Nebraska state trooper Slade Jackson. But can they clear her name before this Christmas turns even deadlier?

Into the Wolves' Den


Jon Athan - 2019
    He enlists the help of Gerald Greenwood, an old friend and a private investigator. When their investigation stalls and desperation creeps in, Keith’s methods become unorthodox, illegal, and extremely violent. Meanwhile, Keith’s daughters, fourteen-year-old Carrie and eight-year-old Allison, witness horrors beyond imagination at the Wolves’ Den, a house in the middle of nowhere. In that house, a group of psychopaths in animal masks produce snuff films and other disturbing content for clients across the globe. Jon Athan, the provocative author behind Dr. Sadist and Lovesick, delivers another dark and disturbing horror novel filled with mystery, suspense, and gore. Can you handle a visit to the Wolves’ Den? WARNING: This novel contains graphic content. Reader discretion is advised.

Kayne's Fury: A Savage Saints MC


J. Lynn Lombard - 2019
    He is fierce in his loyalty to his brothers. He is ruthless. He has bled and killed for his Club. He's determined to go legit. To restore destruction left by his Sister Chapter. To renew the integrity of Savage Saints. His Club is his world. There is no room for anything else. His hard work is in jeopardy. His world on the verge of collapse. The reason, Poison. Poison There's a reason they call her Poison. As the daughter of the Deadly Sins President, she's royalty. She's untouchable and dangerous. She's used to being the one in control. Devastation follows her everywhere she goes. Peril comes to all who get close to her. Darkness surrounds her. This Princess just exploded into Kanye's world. Will Poison seep into Kayne's soul? Will she wreak havoc on all he's accomplished? Or can they find retribution together?