Best of
Trans

2020

Ana on the Edge


A.J. Sass - 2020
    So, when Ana learns that next season's program will be princess themed, doubt forms fast. Still, Ana tries to focus on training and putting together a stellar routine worthy of national success.Once Ana meets Hayden, a transgender boy new to the rink, thoughts about the princess program and gender identity begin to take center stage. And when Hayden mistakes Ana for a boy, Ana doesn't correct him and finds comfort in this boyish identity when he's around. As their friendship develops, Ana realizes that it's tricky juggling two different identities on one slippery sheet of ice. And with a major competition approaching, Ana must decide whether telling everyone the truth is worth risking years of hard work and sacrifice.

I'll Be Home For Christmas


Mason Deaver - 2020
    All it requires is taking a large golden retriever from one end of the country to the other. No pressure. When a snowstorm rocks the east coast sooner than expected, though, Ben is trapped at the airport, and suddenly all their plans for a perfect first Christmas with Nathan are on the line.This 60-page short story details Ben and Nathan’s first Christmas together back in 2019.This short story is available for free via Gumroad’s ‘Pay What You Want’ option, however any proceeds this short story earns will be donated to the National Center for Transgender Equality.

Once a Girl, Always a Boy: A Family Memoir of a Transgender Journey


Jo Ivester - 2020
    Thirty years ago, his parents welcomed him into the world as what they thought was their daughter. As a child, he preferred the toys and games our society views as masculine. He kept his hair short and wore boys’ clothing. They called him a tomboy. That’s what he called himself.By high school, when he showed no interest in flirting, his parents thought he might be lesbian. At twenty, he wondered if he was asexual. At twenty-three, he surgically removed his breasts. A year later, he began taking the hormones that would lower his voice and give him a beard—and he announced his new name and pronouns.Once a Girl, Always a Boy is Jeremy’s journey from childhood through coming out as transgender and eventually emerging as an advocate for the transgender community. This is not only Jeremy’s story but also that of his family, told from multiple perspectives—those of the siblings who struggled to understand the brother they once saw as a sister, and of the parents who ultimately joined him in the battle against discrimination. This is a story of acceptance in a world not quite ready to accept.

it was never going to be okay


jaye simpson - 2020
    As a way to move from the linear timeline of healing and coming to terms with how trauma does not exist in subsequent happenings, it was never going to be okay tries to break down years of silence in simpson’s debut collection of poetry:i am fivemy sisters are saying boyi do not know what the word means but—i am bruised into knowing it: the blunt b,the hollowness of the o, the blade of y

The Ship We Built


Lexie Bean - 2020
    . . . When I write letters, I love that you have to read all of my thoughts and stories before I say any name at all. You have to make it to the very end to know."Rowan has too many secrets to write down in the pages of a diary. And if he did, he wouldn’t want anyone he knows to discover them. He understands who he is and what he likes, but it’s not safe for others to know. Now, the kids at school say he’s too different to spend time with. He’s not the “right kind” of girl, and he’s not the “right kind” of boy. His mom ignores him. And at night, his dad hurts him in ways he’s not ready to talk about yet.But Rowan discovers another way to share his secrets: letters. Letters he attaches to balloons and releases into the universe, hoping someone new will read them and understand. But when he befriends a classmate who knows what it’s like to be lonely and scared, even at home, Rowan realizes that there might already be a person he can trust right by his side.Tender and wise, The Ship We Built is about the bravery it takes to stand up for yourself–even to those you love–and the power of finding someone who treasures you for everything you are.

Gender Explorers


Juno Roche - 2020
    I believe that they are our future."In this life-affirming, heartening and refreshing collection of interviews, young trans people offer valuable insight and advice into what has helped them to flourish and feel happy in their experience of growing up trans.

Depart, Depart!


Sim Kern - 2020
    Though he finds community among other queer refugees, Noah fears his trans and Jewish identities put him at risk with certain capital-T Texans. His fears take form when he starts seeing visions of his great-grandfather Abe, who fled Nazi Germany as a boy. As the climate crisis intensifies and conditions in the shelter deteriorate, Abe's ghost grows more powerful. Ultimately, Noah must decide whether he can trust his ancestor ⁠- and whether he's willing to sacrifice his identity and community in order to survive.Depart, Depart! grapples with intersections of social justice and climate change, asking readers to consider how they'll react when the world changes in an instant. Who will we turn to? What will we take with us, and what will we have to leave behind? In our rapidly changing world, these are questions we grapple with. Focusing on finding and supporting community after disaster, Depart, Depart! is a story for these uncertain times.

We Want It All: An Anthology of Radical Trans Poetics


Andrea Abi-Karam - 2020
    Writing in dialogue with emancipatory political movements, the intergenerational writers assembled here imagine an altogether overturned world in poems that pursue the particular and multiple trans relationships to desire, embodiment, housing, sex, ecology, history, pop culture, and the working day.

Bullies & Guns


Daring Diane - 2020
    These books are a fun easy read with engaging characters. Ripped from the headlines, students will appear at high school with guns. Fair Warning, NO STUDENTS OR TEACHERS DIE, but students do bring guns to school and there is shooting in the school office.After bullying and harassing Drew and friends at school, several students were expelled. As their lives are crashing around them, those students want to blame someone other than themselves. They gather guns and head to school to get even with Drew and his friends for accusing them and helping the police. This story is a realistic portrayal of students who have access to guns using said guns in an effort to attack or hurt people they want to blame.Drew and his best friend Lacy will assist in the evacuation of students and teachers. Later, Drew will negotiate to trade himself in order to save a shooting victim. Of course, the shooters have no idea about Drew’s martial arts skills.In the second part of this story, Drew is asked to help authorities protect a high profile daughter of an elected official. Drew is finding out who he is in the world and helping others is high on the list. Along the way, Drew and Lacy decide to investigate a more personal relationship and go out on a few dates. In this book, Drew uses his skills to resolve several cases of assault involving guns. Near the end of the book, we will see how government authorities can sometimes bully innocent people in a thirst for their own definition of justice. Bullies look for weakness or something that sets someone apart from others. Anything unusual can draw the attention of a bully. High school is an environment ripe with opportunity for bullies. As children grow up body changes lead to physical changes and hygiene requirements. Big kids and little kids, athletes and nerds, heritage or specialized interests which may be unusual can all result in a student being isolated or identified as a victim of opportunity for a bully.Drew Leighton, a high school sophomore, was born male and experienced a case of gynecomastia which resulted in real breasts that do not seem to be going away. He is under a doctor’s care now and is attending school as a female student with a doctor’s note explaining that he is transgendered in his pocket. No one at the school is aware of Drew’s true gender except for his friend Lacy. Drew is trying to understand his body and his sexuality in different ways than all the other high school students around him.Together, Drew and Lacy have encountered and helped resolve a number of cases of bullying.While this book can be read as a standalone, it is the fifth book in the Drew Leighton series.Thank you for readingDaring DianeDisclaimerThis story is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

GRIT: a poetry collection


silas denver melvin - 2020
    There are no beautiful rainbows here, no whispers, but raw cries from somewhere primal. "Silas' words dart in and out like a scalpel revealing layers of flesh that have been given-or-taken-by lovers, parents, cruelty, and fate." - Sean Felix

Pass with Care


Cooper Lee Bombardier - 2020
    In this funny, lyrical, and piercingly insightful collection of essays and poems, trans writer, artist, and activist Cooper Lee Bombardier explores his experiences of gender and sexuality against the backdrop of early '90s, punk-fueled San Francisco queer culture.

I'm Not a Girl


Maddox Lyons - 2020
    His friend thinks he must be a tomboy. His teacher insists he should be proud to be a girl.But a birthday wish, a new word, and a stroke of courage might be just what Hannah needs to finally show the world who he really is.

Trans Care


Hil Malatino - 2020
    A serious consideration of trans survival and flourishing requires a radical rethinking of how care operates.

ZOM-FAM


Kama La Mackerel - 2020
    Composed of expansive lyric poems, ZOM-FAM (meaning “man-woman” or “transgender” in Mauritian Kreol) is a voyage into the coming of age of a gender-creative child growing up in the 80s and 90s on the plantation island, as they seek vocabularies for loving and honouring their queer/trans self amidst the legacy of colonial silences. Multiply voiced and imbued with complex storytelling, ZOM-FAM showcases a fluid narrative that summons ancestral voices, femme tongues, broken colonial languages, and a tender queer subjectivity, all of which grapple with the legacy of plantation servitude. Emerging from a creative process in spoken word and live performance, these poems transform the page into a stage where the queer femme body is written and mapped onto the colonial space of the home/island. Interwoven with Kreol, ZOM-FAM showcases a unique lyrical sensibility, a musicality influenced by the both unforgiving and soothing rhythms of the ocean, where the poet enunciates the complexity of their displaced Indo-African roots, “the lineage of silence / that we weave in-between our intimacies.” Striking, vivid, tender, intimate, and political, ZOM-FAM is a beautifully wrought journey that articulates a contemporary decolonial poetics and offers a roadmap for colonized and displaced queer and trans voices to (re)imagine themselves into being.

Inheritance


Taylor Johnson - 2020
    Influenced by everyday moments of Washington, DC living, the poems live outside of the outside and beyond the language of categorical difference, inviting anyone listening to listen a bit closer. Inheritance is about the self’s struggle with definition and assumption.

So Hormonal: Essays About Our Hormones


Emily Horgan - 2020
    We would recommend So Hormonal to anyone with a body.’ – Authors Abigail Melton and Lilith CooperSo Hormonal is a collection of personal essays detailing the various roles that hormones play in our daily lives. With over 30 authors from almost a dozen countries, this anthology strikes a balance between raw truths, tough challenges, and improbable elation.Prefaced with a foreword from the author of Please Read This Leaflet Carefully, Karen Havelin, contributors discuss topics such as periods, steroid use, chronic illness, transitioning, men’s fertility and menopause with refreshing openness and honesty.Expect pieces that celebrate the wonders and joys of hormones, while also challenging the stigma and discrimination routinely faced at the intersection of hormonal experiences. Compiled and introduced by Emily Horgan and Zachary Dickson, So Hormonal is an open call for new conversations about our hormones.Essays include: Foreword by author Karen HavelinNo Country for Neurodivergent Women: Addressing Undiagnosed ADHD and Cluster Headaches by Donna AlexanderThe Waiting Room: Fighting For Trans-Inclusive Healthcare by Hidden Ink ChildGetting Off the Back Foot with Male Fertility Health by Tyler ChristieThe Self-Made Body: Personal Growth and Steroids by Michael CollinsNotes from a Medical Menopause: There’s a Tea for That by Alexia Pepper de Caires‘Man... I Feel Like a Woman’ A Trans Woman’s Oestrogen Therapy to Treat Gender Dysmorphia by Kacey de GrootRoaccutane Tubes: On Navigating Puberty Hormones and Bodily Changes in the Wake of Sexual Abuse by Madeleine DunneWithholding: An Experience of Diabulimia by Clare Marie EdgemanDon’t Tell Me to Calm Down: The Politics of Stress, Rest, and Lion Taming by L C ElliottTelling Hormonal Stories by Sonja Erikainen, Andrea Ford, Roslyn Malcolm and Lisa RaederMeron: Breaking Free From the Maria Clara Ideal in Filipino Culture by Rita FaireDear Lexi: A Letter to a Friend About PMDD by Tomiwa FolorunsoLet’s Make a Baby (With Science) by Erica GillinghamThe Feminine Chaotic: Endocrine Disorders, the Feminine Identity, and Queer Culture by L j GrayBlood is Back: How my Knowledge and Experience of Periods was Revolutionised, While I Wasn’t Having Them by Rachel GrocottMy Anxiety Is Part of My Identity by Toonika GuhaWanna See My Party Trick? *Stops Taking Testosterone* by James HudsonAn Impersonal History of Self-Medication by Kate KiernanI’m Wearing Docs, Michael: On Thyroids, Tallness and Teenage Suffering by Aifric KyneSpinning through Fog (High Salt Content): Addisons’s Disease and Hormonal Treatment by Ali MaloneyEverything and Nothing: On Pregnancy and Depression by Fiadh MelinaTen Years in the Making: Conversations with Partners About Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome by Sonali MisraClot: Pulmonary Embolisms and the Pill by Rachel MossMood Swings and Misunderstandings: The Complexities of ‘Teenage Hormones’ by Cathy NaughtonPeriod, the End: Sixty Years of Learning by Sigrid NielsenWhat If I’m Not Just a Massive Bitch? Redefining Self with Severe PMDD by Heather Parry‘Wait. I’m Not Finding a Heartbeat’ Speaking Out on Baby Loss by Laura PearsonThe Puberty That Wasn’t Supposed to Exist: Navigating Growing Up Intersex by Maya PoschBlood and Bone: Osteoporosis at 23 by Georgia PriestleyWhat a Difference a Day Makes: How my Middle-Aged Zest for Sex was a Catalyst for Change by Lins RingerA Period Piece: On PCOS, PMDD and the NHS in 2020 by Jo Ross-BarrettChange: The Bitter Pill Medicine Must Continue to Swallow by Annabel SowemimoIf Rabbits, Why Not Women?: Living in a Woman’s Body Shaped and Kept Together by the Inventions of Men by Jeanne SuttonThree Magic Days: Celebrating the Curious Power of Hormones by Alice TarbuckBanana-Leaf Poultices: Black British Attitudes to Healthcare and Medication by Rianna WalcottLLETZ, a Locus: Reconfiguring My Body as a Body That Will Bleed by Anna Walsh

The Big Book of Wildcats


Leslie Moore - 2020
    This gender bending roller coaster ride follows Terry as disguises himself as Tasha Nelson, a fictional twenty-two-year-old cousin to sing and play his way to stardom.

Everyone on the Moon Is Essential Personnel


Julian K. Jarboe - 2020
    Bodily autonomy and transformation, the importance of negative emotions, unhealthy relationships, and bad situations amidst the staggering and urgent question of how build and nurture meaning, love, and safety in a larger world/society that might not be "fixable."

The Thirty Names of Night


Zeyn Joukhadar - 2020
    He has been unable to paint since his mother’s ghost has begun to visit him each evening. As his grandmother’s sole caretaker, he spends his days cooped up in their apartment, avoiding his neighborhood masjid, his estranged sister, and even his best friend (who also happens to be his longtime crush). The only time he feels truly free is when he slips out at night to paint murals on buildings in the once-thriving Manhattan neighborhood known as Little Syria. One night, he enters the abandoned community house and finds the tattered journal of a Syrian American artist named Laila Z, who dedicated her career to painting the birds of North America. She famously and mysteriously disappeared more than sixty years before, but her journal contains proof that both his mother and Laila Z encountered the same rare bird before their deaths. In fact, Laila Z’s past is intimately tied to his mother’s—and his grandmother’s—in ways he never could have expected. Even more surprising, Laila Z’s story reveals the histories of queer and transgender people within his own community that he never knew. Realizing that he isn’t and has never been alone, he has the courage to officially claim a new name: Nadir, an Arabic name meaning rare. As unprecedented numbers of birds are mysteriously drawn to the New York City skies, Nadir enlists the help of his family and friends to unravel what happened to Laila Z and the rare bird his mother died trying to save. Following his mother’s ghost, he uncovers the silences kept in the name of survival by his own community, his own family, and within himself, and discovers the family that was there all along. Featuring Zeyn Joukhadar’s signature storytelling, The Thirty Names of Night is a timely exploration of how we all search for and ultimately embrace who we are.

Non-Binary Lives - An Anthology of Intersecting Identities


Jos Twist - 2020
    But the representation of contemporary non-binary identities has been limited, until now. Pushing the narrative around non-binary identities further than ever before, this powerful collection of essays represents the breadth of non-binary lives, across the boundaries of race, class, age, sexuality, faith and more. Leading non-binary people share stories of their intersecting lives; how it feels to be non-binary and neurodiverse, the challenges of being a non-binary pregnant person, what it means to be non-binary within the Quaker community, the joy of reaching gender euphoria. This thought-provoking anthology shows that there is no right or wrong way to be non-binary.

Love Language


Reese Morrison - 2020
    A grieving sub. Two men whose kinks don't match (or so they think) connecting in ASL. Marco and Greg would both rather be anywhere than a kink club on Valentine’s Day. Marco doesn’t have the patience to speech-read in a hearing crowd. And Greg is still mourning his Sir who passed away three years ago. But when Greg steps in to explain something in ASL, Marco can’t stop thinking about the light he sees in those sad eyes. Strong, older, fluent in sign language, and sweetly submissive, Greg is exactly Marco’s type. Even if Greg isn’t ready for another relationship yet, Marco isn’t ready to let him go. Greg thought that he would never want to date someone again. But as painful as it is to admit, he’s starting to feel like it might be time. Marco is like no one he’s never met. Small, twink-ish, over a decade younger, and a Daddy, he isn’t at all what Greg imagined in a Dom. Yet he’s undeniably attracted to his care and control, even after Marco reveals that he’s transgender. Slipping into ASL, the language of his childhood, Greg wonders if he might have a second chance at love. This book contains hurt/comfort themes, predicament bondage, shibari, wax, and CNC role play, just to get started... and a HEA ending.

Taylor


Leslie Moore - 2020
    He loved dressing up in her hand-me-downs. He admired his older sister and really wanted to be her. Halloween was his favorite holiday because he could let his fantasies run wild and be Cinderella or Wonder Woman. And playing make-believe was always fun when he could be the cute little girl. But, something happened when he turned twelve. He put away the dresses and costumes. The doll house went up in the attic and Taylor’s fantasies were all in his mind. Until one fateful Saturday that changed everything. This is that story.

Euphoria Kids


Alison Evans - 2020
    She has her mum and her dog, but teachers and classmates barely notice her. Then, one day, Iris can see her. And Iris likes what they see. Babs is made of fire.Iris grew from a seed in the ground. They have friends, but not human ones. Not until they meet Babs. The two of them have a lot in common: they speak to dryads and faeries, and they're connected to the magic that's all around them.There's a new boy at school, a boy who's like them and who hasn't found his real name. Soon the three of them are hanging out and trying spellwork together. Magic can be dangerous, though. Witches and fae can be cruel. Something is happening in the other realm, and despite being warned to stay away, the three friends have to figure out how to deal with it on their own terms.Anyone who loves the work of Francesca Lia Block and delights in Studio Ghibli films will be entranced by this gorgeous and gentle young adult novel about three queer friends who come into their power.

Whirlwind


Reese Morrison - 2020
    But he knows that he’s too big, too fat, and too plain to ever appeal. It doesn't help that his secret desires for lace, makeup, and submission don't match his outsides at all. He could never catch Julio’s eye, could he? (MM, friends-to-lovers)Here for You: Eric has always avoided dating. But something’s different about the new sub, Micah. He’s both vulnerable and strong, owning his disability, his transgender identity, and his unconventional desires. Eric is happy to arrange a group scene for the night... and perhaps look for something more tomorrow. (MM, first time)Game for You: Ben and Parker have been circling each other for years in a frenzy of insane dares and sexual innuendo. But as two Doms, they know they could never get together. Enter sassy, gorgeous Dakota, a perfect mix of masculine and feminine, and a perfect challenge for the two men to claim. This story contains spanking, whipping, an erotic game of darts, and an even sexier bet. (MMX, friends-to-lovers with someone new)Back for You: When Nina was betrayed by her teenaged crush at their all-male boarding school, she vowed to move on in her life. She transitioned to being the woman she always knew she was and didn’t look back. But when she meets a gorgeous new customer, it takes only a moment to recognize those eyes. Angel has a new name, but she’s as intense and commanding as ever. And she wants to ask for another chance. This story contains role play, spankings, foot worship, and a chance to reclaim the one who got away. (FF, second chance)Time for You: Charlie knows that she’s too old and grumpy for someone like Carla. He’s young, dapper, confident, and most of all, just as butch as she is. It’s easier to just ignore his flirting and push away any hope for something between them. What would that even look like? When Carla asks her out, Charlie has to decide. Can she take the risk to not only trust Carla, but explore sides of herself she never dared to face? And if she does, will Carla still want her? This story contains shibari and first-time submission. (XX, friends-to-lovers, younger Dom/older sub)The first three stories (Waiting for You, Here for You, and Game for You) were previously available as separate books.

The Sister Act (Sisters Book 1)


Melanie Brown - 2020
    

I Wish


Amethyst Gibbs - 2020
    Now Shannon has to learn lots of new things -- including a secret the women of his family have been keeping for years.

Heaven


Emerson Whitney - 2020
    Whitney streaks this through with queer and gender theory, standing audaciously in the face of uncertainty, to ask: "if the 'feminine' thus far has only existed as a defective version of a masculine idea, then maybe there's something living, like between the gap in the sidewalk, that is actual femininity, accessible to all." Whitney stands in the gap, writes in the gap.Heaven functions much like a hand-dipped candle, lowered patiently into theory and memory--a caught manta rays hanging aloft a dock, a mother checking her teeth in the mirror above the stove--that, taken together, thicken into an astounding, expansive examination of what makes us up. For fans of Eileen Myles or Maggie Nelson's The Argonauts, Whitney's Heaven introduces an important new public intellectual.

M to (WT)F: Twenty-Six of the Funniest Moments from My Transgender Journey


Samantha Allen - 2020
    In this poignant audio piece, Samantha Allen takes listeners along for the wild ride of her own transition: the good, the bad, but mostly, the funny. Because once she began this life-changing journey in earnest, Samantha realized that while the emotional trials of gender dysphoria and self-discovery could be harrowing, there were so many laugh-out-loud moments along this winding road. Think about it: While her 20- and 30-something peers were settling into the people they were going to be for the rest of their lives, Samantha was going through puberty all over again, taking the whole womanhood thing step by glamorous step - from learning the differences between men’s and women’s public restrooms to figuring out how to take off a bra without taking her shirt off first. Recognizing these moments of humor brought her joy in times she needed it most - and sharing them, she learned, could be revelatory. Part deeply personal memoir, part comedic adventure, and part insightful exploration of how gender informs the ways we see the world, M to (WT)F is a delightful listen that proves how powerful it can be to find humor in hardship.

All the Gay Saints


Kayleb Rae Candrilli - 2020
    Focused on love, partnership, and cultivating the landscape of one’s own body, All the Gay Saints seeks happiness in a world saturated with transphobia and marred by climate change. Though this world is finite, these poems want you to live forever. They will unbarb your body if you let them.

Reverse Cowgirl


McKenzie Wark - 2020
    The author doesn't, in the end, have any answers as to who she really is or was, although maybe she figures out what she could become.Traveling from Sydney in the 1980s to New York today, Reverse Cowgirl is a comedy of errors, chronicling the author's failed attempts at being gay and at being straight across the shifting political and media landscapes of the late twentieth century. Finding that the established narratives of being transgender don't seem to apply to her, Wark borrows from the genres of autofiction, fictocriticism, and new narrative to create a writing practice that can discover the form of a life outside existing accounts of trans experience: an auto-ethnography of the opacity of the self.

Reconstructions


Bradley Trumpfheller - 2020
    Reconstructions at once brings forward the past and makes possible different futures. This is a collection underwritten by the kind of rigorous witness that only desire can forge. (Claire Schwartz, author of Bound)

Nothing Ever Happens Here


Sarah Hagger-Holt - 2020
    Nothing ever happens here. Until the spotlight hits my family."Izzy's family is under the spotlight when her dad comes out as Danielle, a trans woman. Izzy is terrified her family will be torn apart. Will she lose her dad? Will her parents break up? And what will people at school say? Izzy's always been shy, but now all eyes are on her. Can she face her fears, find her voice and stand up for what's right?

Blackspace: On the Poetics of an Afrofuture


Anais Duplan - 2020
    Blackspace: On the Poetics of an Afrofuture is the culmination of six years of multidisciplinary research by trans poet and curator Anaïs Duplan about the aesthetic strategies used by experimental artists of color since the 1960s to pursue liberatory possibility. Through a series of lyric essays, interviews with contemporary artists and writers of color, and ekphrastic poetry, Duplan deconstructs how creative people frame their relationships to the word, "liberation." With a focus on creatives who use digital media and language-as-technology—luminaries like Actress, Juliana Huxtable, Lawrence Andrews, Tony Cokes, Sondra Perry, and Nathaniel Mackey—Duplan offers three lenses for thinking about liberation: the personal, the social, and the existential. Arguing that true freedom is impossible without considering all three, the book culminates with a personal essay meditating on the author’s own journey of gender transition while writing the book.

Spectrums: Autistic Transgender People in Their Own Words


Maxfield Sparrow - 2020
    Solely written by trans people on the spectrum, this collection of personal stories foregrounds their own voices and experiences on a range of issues, such as coming out, access to healthcare, employment, relationships, parenting, violence and later life self-discovery among other.

Moxie (Texas Belles #2)


Melanie Brown - 2020
    The other American members went their own ways, some of them back to the states.But no one in Japan ever knew Sam, the American bass-playing boy who joined his sister’s band and helped make them a hit. Sam is Ayumi now, as real as a girl can get. And she wants to keep doing what she does best.Can she put together another band, one made up of misfits and rejects from the Japanese way of doing Big Music? Does she have what it takes to deal with the personalities, the fans, the corporate interference getting in the way?And what about romance? Does she have the Moxie for that too?

Trans-Affirming Magical Care


Ajuan ManceLi-Chi Bennett - 2020
    and J.K. just isn't worth our time! This anthology is a collection of fan works by various trans fans and allies considering the existence of transness in in light of its creator's open transphobia.This personal and heartfelt collection expresses trans possibilities and frustrations via illustrations, comics, fanfiction, op-eds, personal essays, and poetry. If you want to go to Hogwarts or if you think Potter Stinks, we all deserve trans-affirming magical care!Proceeds donated to UK charity Gendered Intelligence.

Texas Two-step


Angela Rasch - 2020
    He had been a standout athlete in Illinois and is having trouble finding a fit in Pecos. Angel had played soccer, which isn’t even an option in this football-crazed, west-Texas town. He finds a job in a Dairy Queen, but mainly due to a misunderstanding his life goes off in a new direction.

Amadeus Irina - The Runaway


Shauna J. Rousseau - 2020
    He takes refuge in a music school where he is caught and mistaken for a girl. How can he explain himself and stay out of deeper trouble?

Travelling Home: Essays on Islam in Europe


Abdal Hakim Murad - 2020
    Hijab and minaret bans, mosque shootings, hostility to migrants and increasingly scornful media stereotypes seem to endanger the prospects for friendly coexistence and the calm uplifting of Muslim populations.In this series of essays Abdal Hakim Murad dissects the rise of Islamophobia on the basis of Muslim theological tradition. Although the proper response to the current impasse is clearly indicated in Qur’an and Hadith, some have lost the principle of trust in divine wisdom and are responding with hatred, fearfulness or despair. Murad shows that a compassion-based approach, rooted in an authentic theology of divine power, could transform the current quagmire into a bright landscape of great promise for Muslims and their neighbours.

My Sister: How One Sibling's Transition Changed Us Both


Selenis Leyva - 2020
    Selenis was immediately smitten; she doted on the baby, who in turn looked up to Selenis and followed her everywhere. The siblings realized, almost at the same moment, that the younger of the two was struggling with their identity. As Marizol transitioned and fought to define herself, Selenis and the family wanted to help, but didn't always have the language to describe what Marizol was going through. In My Sister, Selenis and Marizol narrate, in alternating chapters, their shared journey, challenges, and triumphs. They write honestly about the issues of violence, abuse, and discrimination that trans people and women of color -- and especially trans women of color -- experience daily. And they are open about the messiness and confusion of fully realizing oneself and being properly affirmed by others, even those who love you.Profoundly moving and instructive, My Sister offers insight into the lives of two siblings learning to be their authentic selves. Ultimately, theirs is a story of hope, one that will resonate with and affirm those in the process of transitioning, watching a loved one transition, and anyone taking control of their gender or sexual identities.

Home, Alone (Home Alone #1)


Susan Brown - 2020
    It's almost like a dream as Katie explores her new life. But it's not easy. Where will she get money? How can an eleven-year-old deal with something as mundane as shopping when at any moment some adult may decide she needs help from police, doctors, teachers or lawyers? It's lonely, too. Katie needs a friend, but who can she trust with her secret? That she's just a child living in her home, alone?

Molly


Angela Rasch - 2020
    Fate steps in, and a small, not very happy boy, becomes a pioneer.A tale about deception in the 1950's advertising jungle. Imagine that!

Female Husbands: A Trans History


Jen Manion - 2020
    Female husbands - people assigned female who transed gender, lived as men, and married women - were true queer pioneers. Moving deftly from the colonial era to just before the First World War, Jen Manion uncovers the riveting and very personal stories of ordinary people who lived as men despite tremendous risk, danger, violence, and threat of punishment. Female Husbands weaves the story of their lives in relation to broader social, economic, and political developments in the United States and the United Kingdom while also exploring how attitudes towards female husbands shifted in relation to transformations in gender politics and women's rights, ultimately leading to the demise of the category of 'female husband' in the early twentieth century. Groundbreaking and influential, Female Husbands offers a dynamic, varied, and complex history of the LGBTQ past.

STUFFED IN MY BASEMENT


Nikki Crescent - 2020
    

day/break


Gwen Benaway - 2020
    LGBTQIA Studies. DAY/BREAK, poet Gwen Benaway's fourth collection of work, explores the everyday poetics of the trans feminine body. Through intimate experiences and conceptualizations of trans life, DAY/BREAK asks what it means to be a trans woman, both within the text and out in the physical world. Shifting between theory and poetry, Benaway questions how gender, sexuality, and love intersect with the violence and transmisogyny of the nation state and established literary institutions. In beautiful lyric verse, DAY/BREAK reveals the often-unseen other worlds of trans life, where body, self, and sex are transformed, becoming more than fixed binary locations.

By Imperial Decree


Angel Martinez - 2020
    He knows he shouldn't get involved, but the Altairian Imperial crest on the private craft and the semi-conscious pilot's odd questions pique his always-whirling curiosity.Still unattached at a concerning age for an imperial son, Prince Shiro Shinohara hadn't been running from the endless, mind-numbing rounds of omiai his mother, the Empress, had mandated. Not exactly. He'd just wanted a break from persistent suitors at the family retreat on Ceti Tau. The short respite becomes a panicked flight for his life when one of the suitors stalking him attacks the family compound.Worried for the soldiers he was forced to leave behind, afraid there's a conspiracy to kidnap him, Shiro confides in the handsome mechanic who found him and in a moment of panic, concocts the fiction of a serious relationship with Marsh. It's only until Shiro's people can reach him and he can press charges back home. Marsh is willing to play along and Shiro's just going to have to keep himself together and not, under any circumstances, fall for the wonderful, generous man who refuses to stop helping him.Genre: Gay Romance, Science Fiction, Suspense, Novella Word Count: 39,000

Trans-Galactic Bike Ride: Feminist Bicycle Science Fiction Stories of Transgender and Nonbinary Adventurers


Lydia RogueM. Darusha Wehm - 2020
    In worlds where bicycle rides bring luck, a minotaur needs a bicycle, and werewolves stalk the post-apocalyptic landscape, nobody has time to question gender. Whatever your identity you'll enjoy these stories that are both thought-provoking and fun adventures. Featuring brand-new stories from Hugo, Nebula, and Lambda Literary Award-winning author Charlie Jane Anders, Ava Kelly, Juliet Kemp, Rafi Kleiman, Tucker Lieberman, Nathan Alling Long, Ether Nepenthes, and Nebula-nominated M. Darusha Wehm. Also featuring debut stories from Diana Lane and Marcus Woodman.

Watch Me


Valentyne - 2020
    Despite the cameras, despite all the ways to get caught, he strives for infamy. Wolf becomes The Lullaby, the last thing you hear before you fall asleep. Hearts beat in staccato as his murderous melody whispers through the city. As Wolf's kills mount, so does his confidence. He planned for everything, everything except joining his own fan club. Everything except falling in love. The president – and only member – Lyon Shizohr may be the one person who can catch the Lullaby. Or perhaps The only one on his side. What happens when a lullaby starts sounding like a love song? In this thrilling romance, the stakes are higher than the body count as Wolf tries to dance around the pitfalls of being the bad guy while courting Lyon with his crimes. But when his lullaby comes to a crescendo, what will Wolf do to avoid having to face the music? Content warnings for this book include suicide, depictions and descriptions, and mentions of rape. Please do not read if you will find these themes or images triggering.

The Plus One: A Transgender Romance Novel


Yumi Cox - 2020
    

Corrupted Vessels


Briar Ripley Page - 2020
    Debut novella of fiction author and poet Briar Ripley Page.

Transgender Body Politics


Heather Brunskell-Evans - 2020
    This movement in transgender politics has turned coloniser, erasing the bodies, agency, and autonomy of women and children, while asserting men’s rights to bodily intrusion into every social and personal space. In a complete reversal of feminist gender critical analyses, sex and gender are redefined: identity is now called ‘innate’ (a ‘feeling’ located somewhere in the body) and biological sex is said to be socially constructed (and hence changeable). This ensures a lifetime of drug dependency for transitioners, thereby delivering vast profits for Big Pharma in a capitalist dream. Everyone, including every trans person, has the right to live freely without discrimination. But the transgender movement has been hijacked by misogynists who are appropriating and inverting the struggles of feminism to deliver an agenda devoid of feminist principles. An eye-opening book.

to love and mourn in the age of displacement


Alan Pelaez Lopez - 2020
    Alán Peláez Lopez reflects on what it means to embody a multidimensional existence as Black and Indigenous in an empire committed to maintain the global circuit of anti-Blackness paired with settler violence. By mediating death, fragmented romantic encounters, and the news, the collection insists/argues/declares that those who have survived (/are surviving) structural violence “create abundance where [one] thought there was none.” In such declaration, the poet refuses a single-story of violence in order to make space for an AfroIndigenous future rooted in kinship and mourning practices.

Kinship and Kindness


Kara Jorgensen - 2020
    When his dirigible finally lands in Louisiana, he finds the Rougarou is gone and in his stead is his handsome son, Theo, who seems to care for everyone but himself. Hoping he can still petition the Rougarou, Bennett stays only to find he is growing dangerously close to Theo Bisclavret.Theo Bisclavret thought he had finally come to terms with never being able to take his father’s place as the Rougarou, but with his father stuck in England and a delegation of werewolves arriving in town, Theo’s quiet life is thrown into chaos as he and his sister take over his duties. Assuming his father’s place has salted old wounds, but when a stranger arrives offering to help, Theo knows he can’t say no, even if Mr. Reynard makes him long for things he had sworn off years ago.As rivals arrive to challenge Theo for power and destroy the life Bennett has built, they know they must face their greatest fears or risk losing all they have fought for. With secrets threatening to topple their worlds, can Theo and Bennett let down their walls before it’s too late?

APARTMENT 314 - A Transgender Romance Novel


Yumi Cox - 2020
    He seems to have the world at his feet. But Alexander’s housemate and best friend, Ludwig, seems to one-up Alexander on every front. From jobs to income to girls, Ludwig always seems one step up the ladder from Alexander.When the apartment down the hall, apartment 314, gets rented, the boys have high expectations. But flight attendant Britt and her social media maven sister, Emma, exceed all expectations. The boys think all their Christmases have come at once. Both girls are new in town, model level attractive, and amazingly, single. The perfect combination.But alpha Ludwig soon turns the arrival into yet another competition. A two-part bet that will see the winner get his laundry done, and have their rent paid, for a month. The race is on to date one of the sisters. That is until a mystery girl walks from apartment 314 and steals Alexander’s heart. Tall, brunette and with brown eyes, this girl intrigues, and really stands out against the blonde-haired, blue-eyed population of Oslo.If you like transgender romance stories with an air of mystery and plenty of fun, then you’ll love ‘APARTMENT 314’. The latest novel from indie author Yumi Cox.Will Ludwig successfully alpha Alexander away from the gorgeous girls of apartment 314, or will Alexander win the bet, and love of his life, by taking a massive chance on love?

Victory Lap


K.A. Mielke - 2020
    (Well, that and the fact that his best friend basically forced him into it.) The only thing he’s sure about is the love of his life—who promptly breaks up with him. High school senior, Kiki, quietly presented as her true gender over the summer to an audience of herself, her best friend, and her vaguely unsupportive parents. Now she has to deal with coming to her school as a new person, and when she’s partnered with Josh in Writer’s Craft, she finds herself developing maybe a little bit of an enormous crush.Everyone just wants to make it out of high school in one piece, but Josh and Kiki’s last year might not be so simple.Victory Lap is an own voices novel about taking the time to find yourself, even when the rest of the world screams for you to get a move on.

Greyhound


Aeon Ginsberg - 2020
    The book discusses issues that deal with safety, passing, rural and city queerness, police and prison abolition, and autonomy. Greyhound is one poem, routed in the authors life, that is the journey and the destination and how those two places are linked through the movement between each other. It is a book for outcasts, true-freaks, weird-o’s, and forever and always anyone trans.

Finding Self: A Transgender Person's Guide to Physical Transition (For Transmasculine and Nonbinary People)


Sage W. Buch - 2020
    In Sage's words: "When I first realized I was trans, the journey of transition felt like a never-ending uphill battle to me. The amount of information was simultaneously overwhelming and nonexistent. I found pieces here and there that felt fitting for me, but so much of the information I found felt so exclusionary. At the time, I didn't have trans people around me to ask questions of, or to lean on. Because of that, I spent the last seven years doing deep-dive research into all aspects of physical transition through not just reading recorded scientific research, but also through my own personal experience, interviews and interactions with doctors, fellow trans people, parents/families, and attending large gender conferences such as the Philadelphia Trans Wellness Conference (Philadelphia, PA), and Genderevolution (Salt Lake City, UT). As I collected all of the information I could, I pooled all my notes together and created what is now this book. This book exists for you. So that whatever questions you have are answered, or are clarified enough for you to do more research. So that your journey may be a touch easier. So that no matter where you are in the world, no matter what kind of support you have around you, you can hear the voice of another trans person calling out to you, uplifting you."

Handsome


Holly Lorka - 2020
    She had questions: Was she a monster? Would she ever be able to grow sideburns? And most importantly, where was her penis?The problem was, it was the 1970s, so there were no answers yet.Here, Lorka tells the story—by turns hilarious and poignant—of her romp through the first fifty years of her life searching for sex, love, acceptance, and answers to her questions. With a sharp wit, endearing innocence, and indelible sense of optimism, she struggles through the awkward years (spoiler: that’s all of them) and discovers that what she thought were mistakes are actually powerful tools to launch her into a magical—and ridiculous—life.Oh, and she discovers that she can buy a penis at the store, too.

Trans Wizard Harriet Porber and the Bad Boy Parasaurolophus: An Adult Romance Novel


Chuck Tingle - 2020
    After finishing wizard college, Harriet made a name for herself by creating a hit viral spell, but has since failed to craft a follow up. Now Harriet’s agent, Minerma, is breathing down her neck, suggesting that Harriet take a trip to an island off the coast of England for inspiration.Hoping for some peace and quiet to clear her head, Harriet Porber arrives to find that her new neighbor, an angsty bard named Snabe from the band Seven Inch Nails, is already there making a racket. This parasaurolophus spellcaster is a bad boy through and through, and with his incredible powers of metamagic, Snabe reveals that this layer of reality is much more than it seems. Could Harriet and Snabe really be characters in a parody romance novel?Soon enough, these two are discovering they have more similarities than differences: both trans, both strong, and both hoping to create a new spell that will change the world. But with the addition of two devious sentient motorcycles to the mix, Dellatrix and Braco, things start to get complicated.Now trans wizard Harriet Porber is caught up in a tale of magic and mystery where nothing is as it seems, except for one universal truth: love is real.

The Trans Self-Care Workbook: A Coloring Book and Journal for Trans and Non-Binary People


Theo Lorenz - 2020
    A creative journal and workbook with a difference, this book combines coloring pages celebrating trans identity, beauty and relationships, with practical advice, journaling prompts and space for reflection to promote self-affirmation and wellbeing.Drawing on CBT and mindfulness techniques, the book covers topics including body positivity and neutrality, coming out, euphoria and dysphoria, building new friendships and navigating relationships with your friends and family, and is the go-to resource for anybody who has ever felt the pressure to conform to a singular definition or narrative.Theo Nicole Lorenz's heart-warming and empowering illustrations of trans people will provide reassurance that you are never alone, and are a reminder to always treat yourself kindly.

The Sapphire Shadow


James Wake - 2020
    Big ones, small ones, red ones, blue ones. But her favorite variety is the illegally acquired. She has more than enough money to buy the best. That’s never been the point. Shoplifting is her hobby, her escape. When her high school friend, Tess, offers to help her break into real burglary, how could she refuse? Tess is a technical genius - she designed and built her own right arm. Surely she can take down any security standing in their way to bigger and better loot.Outside the city walls, Jackson was raised in the slums. Life as a refugee was never easy, and the only way out was joining the army. Now she’s a cop, finally living inside the old sea walls. She’s supposed to be hunting Cheshire, a reclusive hacktivist stirring up unrest, but the nightly news is full of a smug young woman breaking the law and getting away with it, blowing kisses as she escapes police and private security. Theatrical, daring heists, thrilling to watch. And Jackson hates every minute of it.Meanwhile, the city they both call home is slowly tearing itself apart around them. Jackson crushes riot after riot, just part of the job. But more and more it feels wrong, hopeless, no point to any of it, no future for any of them.Nadia has given up on the future. But more and more people see her escapades and realize they can fight back. It doesn’t make sense to Nadia, not at first, but an unlikely romance starts to show her that there could be some hope, even in a broken world.

The Apprentice - A Transgender Romance Novel


Yumi Cox - 2020
    Being short, skinny and naive, he wonders how he secured the job ahead of more physically capable candidates.But while Shane loves his job and working for his hot young boss Brian, his $150 per week salary is going to be challenging to live on.A full re-wiring of Bella’s Bordello, a brothel renowned for its Virgin Conversion Therapy, is his first job. He can’t believe he gets paid to spend two weeks at a brothel learning the ropes, getting coffees and hanging out with the staff.But things heat up when he discovers how Madam X, owner of Bella’s Bordello, keeps her costs under control.How will Shane decide to spend his payment in kind and why will it change his life forever?

Sugar and Spice


Eli Wray - 2020
    When the baking goes very wrong, can Mason still win Natalie’s heart?This low stakes story includes holiday baking, two people pining, rain-soaked admissions from hopeless romantics, some wholesome smut and a 100% nonbinary trans cast.

Grey Dawn


Nyri A. Bakkalian - 2020
    Driven by a leading from the Spirit, Chloë Parker Stanton leaves the woman she loves to enlist in the Union Army and fight for abolition in war as she has in the streets of Philadelphia. At home, her lover, Leigh Hunter, eagerly awaits Chloë’s letters, anxious to hear of her survival without discovery, for women are not allowed to wear the Union blue.Three days after Gettysburg comes the news: the Seventeenth Pennsylvania Cavalry has survived, but Chloë Stanton is missing, presumed dead.The year is 2020. Sergeant First Class Leigh Hunter came of age during her seventeen-year stint in uniform. Since childhood, she’d been drawn to the Army in search of something, all the while fighting her inner truth as a trans woman. After her final combat tour, Leigh left the military a decorated combat veteran and finally transitioned. She was quickly recruited by the Joint Temporal Integrity Commission: a new, secretive government agency tasked with intercepting temporal refugees and integrating them into present-day society.Two years after joining the JTIC, Leigh is entrusted with a special assignment: personal custody of a Pennsylvania cavalry soldier from three days after Gettysburg.Her name: Chloë Parker Stanton.Grey Dawn is a tale of war, abolition, union, and women who forge ties that carry them from one life into the next. When the grey dawn breaks on a new era and a new cause, who can you trust to fight beside you?

The Novitiate


Angela Rasch - 2020
    He can’t wait to go away to college, far from a dad who is disappointed with his son’s tiny frame. Tim is also unhappy with his body, for a much more shielded reason. Music provides the catalyst for lasting change.

The Handsake That Hides the Snake


Angela Rasch - 2020
    

Sea-Witch


Never Angeline Nørth - 2020
    Monsters are under ambient attack by the 78 men who cause pain. Reality is fake, time is an illusion. Come get lost.

Cat's Got Your Heart


Jem Zero - 2020
    Then Jericho Adams meets Harinder Mangal, the surly pet store employee who loves animals and hates customers. Their first encounter inspires more than simple loathing—it puts the ball in motion for an absurd game of deceit that boasts a fluffy cat named Dumpling as the prize.Harinder hates Jericho’s attitude, especially when it comes to owning a pet. He attempts to chase the other man from his store and is shocked when Jericho overcomes every obstacle, no matter how bizarre. Not only that, but he generates some of his own wild inconveniences that leave Harinder seething in his ugly sweater and mom jeans.Before either man can get the other to crack, Harinder finds himself unexpectedly homeless. Despite their mutual antagonism, Jericho invites Harinder to crash at his place. The increased proximity makes it difficult for Harinder and Jericho to maintain their respective ruses, not to mention stopping themselves from actually caring about their pet-parenting rival.

Perfectionists


Angela Rasch - 2020
    All of his life it has been his dream and his parents’ dream that he would work for Universal Corporation. It is 2033, and he has an offer of employment in his hands from them. Has his dream come true, or is he entering into his worst nightmare? Perfect Isn’t Always Good Andy has a date for prom with a very pretty girl and suddenly finds himself flat broke and unable to come up with the needed money. His best friend Mike has a solution – that requires a foolish leap of faith.

Heavier Than Wait


Ilyus Evander - 2020
    LGBTQIA Studies. Women's Studies. Art. "'I forget my name and that is an act of self-love,' writes Ilyus Evander in this moving debut, where dissociation and dysphoria make complicated knots with healing. Here, the body is both angelic ghost and mechanical saboteur; at once mythical in its promises and heavy with its limitations. Evander navigates the contradictions of this journey with formal imagination, emotional verve, and a refusal to chart any easy paths to triumph. Yet this is a collection wrought, too, with something like hope—something, at least, like the belief that new names might grow in the old one's place."—Franny Choi

Mile High Club - Bangkok (BKK)


Yumi Cox - 2020
    Straight out of the air force, Ken is a handsome 25yo African American who has never left the US. He has been recruited as Co-Pilot, flying a Private Jet for a Silicon Valley entrepreneur. Now the learning curve really begins. Ken’s first trip is to Thailand, where the crew is based in Bangkok for a week. That gives him ample downtime to have some fun in the nightlife capital of the world. A lamb in a cage of wolves, Ken is naive and doesn’t even know what a ladyboy is. Viking-esque pilot (Bo) views his job as not just to fly the plane, but to help his young offsider to truly experience each destination. And he enlists Miss Patsy and the Alcazar Cabaret girls to handle Ken’s education, first hand. But gorgeous VIP Flight Attendant (Kimberley) has vowed to keep Ken out of trouble.If you like transgender romance stories with an equal dose of action and heart, then you’ll love ‘Mile High Club - Bangkok (BKK). The latest novel from indie author Yumi Cox.Will Kimberley successfully steer Ken away from the forbidden fruit, or will Bo provide Ken with an eye-opening, and perhaps life-changing, experience?

The Princess Warrior


Melanie Brown - 2020
    

Beneath the Waters


Juliet Llewellyn - 2020
    "Have you ever told a lie so well that you've started to believe it? Perhaps, if you truly have, then you wouldn’t know.”When Sheba Waters attempts to reinvent herself during a summer spent with family friends in Brighton, she finds herself tangled in a web of her own lies.This coming-of-age mystery drama explores friendship, love and self-discovery.Beneath the Waters is Juliet Llewellyn's debut novel.