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I Feel Him Watching by T.A. McKay
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Last Line
Harper Fox - 2011
He's trying to hide it, because the man he loves is also his partner in a renegade counterterrorism agency, and John loves the job too. Michael, the most loyal of friends and partners, doesn't return John's passion. Nor that of anyone else, as far as John can see. Sexy and handsome as hell, Mike is a chained-up man, haunted by memories of a mission gone wrong during his time in Russia for MI5. Their one sexual encounter only drives them apart: Mike's guilt has left him needing a violence John isn't prepared to deliver.Enter Anzhel Mattvei, a charismatic secret-service agent who held Mike captive in Russia and has now apparently changed sides. The psychological programming he instilled soon has Mike in sexual thraldom, fighting for possession of his will and his soul. Only John's love can call him back from the brink. The Russian war criminal Anzhel serves has hidden a nuclear device in London, and Anzhel has set Mike up to detonate it. John must find a way to help Mike overcome his programming, or millions of lives will be the price.Publisher's Note: This book contains explicit sexual content, graphic language, and situations that some readers may find objectionable: Dubious consent, male/male sexual practices.
Bad Judgment
Sidney Bell - 2016
Now he's living under the radar, desperate to hide his identity and determined to learn the truth behind what happened. Even if that means working for—and bedding—a man he loathes.As a bodyguard to a shadowy arms dealer, Brogan Smith knows distractions can kill as easily as a bullet. But when he sets his eyes on his client's sexy assistant, he can't get him out of his mind. Even more unnerving: the closer he gets to Embry, the more Brogan starts to suspect he might be protecting the wrong man.Embry was sure nothing but vengeance would satisfy him—until Brogan offers him something far more tempting. Now Embry must choose: punish the people who nearly destroyed him or fight for a future with the man who has become his entire world.
The Lighthouse Keeper
Jason Collins - 2020
Now I’m racing to Briton Bay to put my reporter skills to work. Nicholas, the lighthouse keeper, is a rare new face in this sleepy coastal town, and his connection to my aunt isn’t the only reason I’m interested.He’s not just a neighbor I keep bumping into, he’s a former doctor with a puzzling past I’m endlessly curious about—and a face I wouldn’t mind seeing every day. It isn’t long before we feel an undeniable spark, but our relationship is a new complication. Falling in love on the job wasn’t in my plans.I owe it to my aunt to keep a clear head, but I can’t investigate when all I can think about is Nicholas. I’ll need his insights to get to the bottom of this, and the closer I get, the more I risk heartbreak for us both.As it turns out, Nicholas may be the biggest mystery of all.NICHOLAS:I wanted a fresh start, but trouble follows me.I moved to Briton Bay to escape my past. It was never the plan to make friends with the locals, least of all my elderly neighbor. Her passing is a shock, but not as much as her nephew, a reporter, arriving in town to investigate.Alex is as sharp as he is hot, and I can’t keep my eyes off him. The last thing I need right now is romance, but I have second thoughts when our investigation brings us closer than I planned. Now there’s more at stake than I ever expected.But the sooner he solves this mystery, the closer he is to leaving town forever. I should keep my heart out of it—but that’s the one thing I can’t do.The more we’re together, the more dangerous this becomes.Note to readers: This is a standalone MM romance.
Evenfall: Volume 1: Director's Cut
Ais - 2014
Their goals justify all means, even when it comes to their own agents.Sin is the Agency's most efficient killer. His fighting skills and talent at assassination have led to him being described as a living weapon. However, he is also known to go off on unauthorized killing sprees, and his assigned partners have all wound up dead.Boyd is not afraid to die. When his mother, a high-ranking Agency official, volunteers him to be Sin's newest partner, he does not refuse. In fact, his life has been such an endless cycle of apathy and despair that he'd welcome death.In the newly revised Director's Cut of Evenfall, the first volume follows these two cast-offs as they go from strangers to partners who can only rely on each other while avoiding death, imprisonment, and dehumanization by the Agency that employs them.120,000 words.Warnings: Explicit violence, physical and psychological abuse.Note: This is the first of the two volumes comprising Evenfall, the first book in the ICoS series.
Brash
Eva Leon - 2018
No one comes here, and no one knows where I am. When Ezra turns up on my doorstep, I suspect he’s a reporter, who doesn’t know when to let a story die. It’s soon obvious he doesn’t remember me as my Hollywood persona, and the fear in his eyes tells me he’s running from demons, the same as me. The difference is, mine are dead, and his are very much alive, and in pursuit. It’s been a long time since I cared about anyone or anything, but Ezra could change that if I let him. Ezra I was sure I was too smart not to recognize an abusive jerk when I met one—so how did I end up the virtual prisoner of my Alpha boyfriend, who turned out to be a drug dealer with a shady past and violent present, who wants to control my future? When I saw him kill someone, I ran, but he’s after me. I don’t know if he wants me back, or if he wants to silence me, but I’ll die before I go back to him. I have nothing left until I stumble across Levi’s cabin where I find hope for survival, and maybe a second chance at happiness with the curmudgeonly man living in terrain as rugged as he is. Brash is a standalone Mpreg romance with a salty Alpha, sweet but scared Omega, and the happily ever after you’re craving.
Home for the Holidays
Jerry Cole - 2017
He’s sure that the moment that he arrives his family is going to tell him just how disappointed they are in him. He can’t blame them. They’re right. He’s an abject failure. Even after trying to make it in the city for almost a decade, he still has no steady gigs as an actor and now that he has broken up with his ex-girlfriend—if she can even be called that—he has nowhere to live and no one to pay his bills. Max worries that he might not be able to come back to the city when he goes home if his parents realize just how much he’s struggling. They have never supported his career as an actor and now he’s just going to prove them right. Sitting there in the airport, dreading what’s going to come next, something completely unexpected happens. Max runs into Jason Mayes, his childhood best friend. The same guy who went on to become a teenage frenemy. The very same Jason Mayes that Max is still moderately sure he’s in love with. Of course, Jason wants nothing to do with him. Max knows that he was awful to him when they were kids and he knows that there’s very little he can do to apologize for what he did. But when all flights are grounded and Jason decides to talk to him, all bets are off and the scales start to fall from Max’s eyes. Will Max be able to convince Jason that he means it when he’s apologizing? Will Jason be able to let go of one more egregious offense after he attempts to forgive him? Maybe their long-lasting relationship will end with a tryst in the bathroom of an overcrowded airport. But not if Max can help it. He doesn’t like men—he doesn’t think—but with Jason, everything is different. And he will do anything it takes to prove to him that he has changed. Please Note: This book contains adult language & steamy adult activities, it is intended for 18+ Adults Only. Novel, approx. 60,000 words in length. HEA (happy ever after ending). Does not end with a "cliffhanger".
Dirty Kiss
Rhys Ford - 2011
Investigating the apparent suicide of a prominent Korean businessman's son proves to be anything but ordinary, especially when it introduces Cole to the dead man's handsome cousin, Kim Jae-Min.Jae-Min's cousin had a dirty little secret, the kind that Cole has been familiar with all his life and that Jae-Min is still hiding from his family. The investigation leads Cole from tasteful mansions to seedy lover's trysts to Dirty Kiss, the place where the rich and discreet go to indulge in desires their traditional-minded families would rather know nothing about.It also leads Cole McGinnis into Jae-Min's arms, and that could be a problem. The death of Jae-Min's cousin is looking less and less like a suicide, and Jae-Min is looking more and more like a target. Cole has already lost one lover to violence he's not about to lose Jae-Min too.
Corrupt
Chase Potter - 2018
Political connections and lucrative city contracts have turned his unassuming company into a powerful development firm, and Matt has never been afraid of bending the rules to get what he wants. All that changes when he collides with the city’s new district attorney, Alex Price. Dedicated to cracking down on years of shady politics, Alex enlists Matt as an insider ally. But when a spark of chemistry and a less than honest collaboration quickly spiral into something more, Matt finds himself falling for Alex faster than he’s prepared for. As Alex’s investigation leads him toward a corruption scandal rooted deep in the past, Matt realizes he might not be able to protect both his business and his heart against a man who could take everything from him. And as the two men find their professional and personal lives increasingly entangled, they begin to understand that the law can cut both ways.
Love Fanatic
Peter Styles - 2017
But living and loving in the real world… that’s hard.
Life should be easy for Lance Epstein. He’s the author of a hugely popular young adult fantasy series and he can afford just about anything he could want or need, including his mansion. All he has to do is write and make the occasional public appearance. He’s living the dream. Or at least he would be, if he was doing anything that people expected of him. Instead, after a bad ending to his only relationship, Lance becomes a hermit, spending five years in a state of perpetual writer’s block and depression. But when his agent sets up a giveaway for a fan, Lance is forced to have dinner with his biggest admirer: Sam Lawrence, a handsome and upbeat fanfiction writer who is infatuated with Lance’s work. One passionate night leads to another, and the two embark on a cross-country road trip to Fantasticon together. Soon, even the cynical Lance is taken in by Sam’s talent and enthusiasm. Spending every day and night with one another evokes feelings within Sam that are equally terrifying and electrifying. But the closer Lance finds himself to really falling in love, the more frightened he is, and the more the demons of his past fight to overtake him. Will Lance ever be able to set down of the baggage of his past? And, more importantly, will Sam be able to see past it? In this touching 75,000-word gay romance novel, Love Fanatic, Lance and Sam’s sensual story will leave you breathless. Descriptive, passionate scenes make this novel suitable for adults only.
Waiting in the Throes
Maddox Grey - 2014
Told in one novel, two parts. Part One deals almost entirely with the abduction and is complete. Part Two deals with the aftermath, and is a WIP. (Last update March 17 2014)Words: Approx 265,000READER ADVISORY: This story contains potentially triggering scenes of abuse and graphic rape. Full warnings available at the source of the story.
The Guardian Series: The Complete Set
Max Walker - 2018
These four books follow the interconnected lives of men who act as protectors and the men that fall in love with them. COVER ME Tristan Cole made a mistake by falling for his best friend, Adrian Hawk, all those years ago. Their friendship disintegrated after Tristan made a drunken move on Adrian. Now, the both of them are working as FBI agents positioned across the country from each other. But when they find themselves working on the same case after years of not speaking, they end up having to face their pasts headon while also hunting down an infamous drug kingpin before he sets off a devastating terror plot. FIRST DOWN Sean Drake is a star college football player still deep in the closet. With an increasingly crazy stalker seemingly around every corner, his coach decides a bodyguard would be a smart investment. In comes Connor Hawk, a man who resigned himself to living a lonely life dedicated to his work. When Connor and Sean meet, their chemistry is undeniable. Now, both men must come to terms with feelings they thought they were never destined to have. Can their budding relationship survive the worsening advances from the stalker or will they both not even make it to first down? EAGLE GRIP Isaac Hawk’s life wasn’t going as planned. He looked for a change and ended up accepting a job as security for the American gymnastics team. That meant he was traveling to Rome for the Olympics. He knew he would cross paths with his ex, Diego Cruz, but he didn’t realize what that meant. Neither did Diego, who was taken off guard by their chance encounter. Both men will need to deal with their emotions while an old flame of Diego’s threatens to throw them both off the balance beams and into their graves. FIRE FLOW Sexy firefighter, Colton Drake, has everything going for him, so why was he having such a terrible time finding someone to spend his life with? Cue Mason Bleu, a fire investigator who gets transferred to Colton’s station. They immediately connect on a level that rocks the both of them. The men must handle the fiery passion that promises to consume the both of them, all while a serial arsonist spreads fear throughout the community. Can they make it through the fire or will they be turned to ashes? _________________ These are four full-length, very steamy gay romance books containing zero cliffhangers and plenty of loving.
Abel: It Can't Be You
C.J. Bishop - 2014
Having no family but his 16-year-old sister, Savannah, and coming from the streets – The Phoenix club has become his home, the other boys his close-knit family. Abel doesn't trust the outside world and is content to remain within his safe haven. But when an overzealous customer sends Abel to the ER, he meets young, handsome Dr. Devlin Grant – and the instant attraction he feels for the man stirs up the nightmares of his past, causing him to resist his new feelings. Yet it becomes impossible to avoid the doctor when Savannah gets sick and ends up in his care. And just when his heart is ready to trust this new found love – Abel is confronted with a disturbing fact about the doctor that reaches deep into his past and his nightmares. An emotionally charged, sexy, heart-wrenching love story that will break your heart, then put it back together again. Warning: This book contains homosexual relations and crude language not suitable for readers below 17yo.
Save the Date
Romeo Alexander - 2018
So when a young couple is the target of a hate crime and asks for his help, it gets personal. Derrick Marlow and Ethan Reynolds thought their lives would be perfect after moving into their exclusive, gated community. With their wedding only a few weeks away, everything felt too good to be true. And these childhood sweethearts soon learned that it was. When the first brick came through their window, they tried to explain it away as a prank. But now that things have escalated and the police refuse to help, they’ve turned to the one man who may be able to find who is behind the harassment. This seasoned detective will have to discover who is behind these crimes before these lovers walk down the aisle. Save The Date is full of passionate encounters and graphic details that will leave plenty of evidence for readers to uncover. 18+ only please. Get your copy today to learn if there is more to this investigation than meets the eye! A Gay Romance
Angel and the Assassin
Fyn Alexander - 2010
Being in charge is his way of life whether it be in his work with the Secret Intelligence service, his personal life, or in the dungeon. The last thing he expects when he is out on a hit is to fall in love with Angel, an eighteen-year-old boy desperate for the love and guidance of a Daddy. Yet Angel also has a passion for being spanked and restrained. Two very different men find love in a world of skilled assassins, Bosnian terrorists, and dungeon play.Publisher's Note: This book contains explicit sexual content, graphic language, and situations that some readers may find objectionable: BDSM theme and content, male/male sexual practices.
Absolution
Sloane Kennedy - 2016
And I knew in that moment that I would do anything to keep it. Anything. --Cole
After four years abroad, artist Jonas Davenport has come home to start building his dream of owning his own art studio and gallery. But just as he's ready to put the darkness of his past behind him forever, it comes roaring back with a vengeance.The only thing keeping ex-cop Mace Calhoun from eating his own gun after an unthinkable loss is his role in an underground syndicate that seeks to get justice for the innocent by taking the lives of the guilty. Ending the life of the young artist who committed unspeakable crimes against the most vulnerable of victims should have been the easiest thing in the world. So why can't he bring himself to pull the trigger?After years of fighting in an endless, soul-sucking war, Navy SEAL Cole Bridgerton has come home to fight another battle - dealing with the discovery that the younger sister who ran away from home eight years earlier is lost to him forever. He needs answers and the only person who can give them to him is a young man struggling to put his life back together. But he never expected to feel something more for the haunted artist.Cole and Mace. One lives by the rules, the other makes his own. One seeks justice through the law while the other seeks it with his gun. Two men, one light, one dark, will find themselves and each other when they're forced to stand side by side to protect Jonas from an unseen evil that will stop at nothing to silence the young artist forever.But each man's scars run deep and even the strength of three may not be enough to save them...Note: This book contains M/M/M sexual content and is intended for mature audiences.
Trigger Warning
: This book contains references to childhood sexual abuse.***This is Book 1 in the series, but can be read as a stand-alone story - no cliffhangers.***Book 1 - Absolution (M/M/M)Book 2 - Salvation (M/M)Book 3 - Retribution (M/M)Book 4 - Forsaken (M/M)