Love at First Spray


Tom Caval - 2018
    Simon, a small-time clerk in the Big City, has just two hours to buy all the items on a ridiculously detailed (and expensive) gift list. A long list provided by Joshua, his handsome boyfriend, who also happens to be a self-absorbed aspiring model. Now the race is on to check all the items on the list. For the sake of love. Simon is almost done, but there is only one item left: the latest perfume obsession for gays. Of course, it is sold-out and a desperate Simon needs to scour the city for it. But little does he know, he will have the help of a sexy and exotic stranger. Love at First Spray is a funny, romantic and cosy gay Christmas short story, about finding love in the most unexpected place.

Secrets of a Gay Marine Porn Star


Rich Merritt - 2001
    . . Here's the story of Rich Merritt--the good son, teacher's pet, Southern gentleman, model Christian student at Bob Jones University, Marine officer, and the not-so-anonymous poster boy for a New York Times Magazine article on gays in the military--whose complicated sexual past caused an international scandal when The Advocate "outed" him as "The Marine Who Did Gay Porn," putting his life in a tailspin. It's the compelling, poignant story of how a boy who never listened to pop music, never cursed, and didn't have his first drink until he was eighteen exploded into a life of drugs, alcohol, promiscuity, prostitution, and pornography. And above all, it's a triumphant story of self-forgiveness and identity, of a man who refused to allow himself to be defined by the standards of anyone else--gay or straight. Along the way, Rich Merritt writes with humor, compassion, insight and naked truth about: What it's really like growing up behind the "Fortress of Fundamentalism" and how he ultimately came to despise their viewsThe harsh realities of military life under the "Don't ask, don't tell" Clinton policyA real insider's experience of working in the male porn industry--the good, the bad, and the extremely hotWhy he chose not to reveal his porn past to the New York Times journalistWhat it felt like to be the most notorious marine in the world and what it took to come through the fireBy turns harrowing and heartbreaking, angry and affirming, Secrets of a Gay Marine Porn Star is that rarest of memoirs--a fascinating slice of life that reads like the most absorbing fiction, but is all true. Rich Merritt has written an Op-Ed column for the Navy Times. He has been profiled for The New York Times Magazine, The Los Angeles Times, and The Advocate. Stories about him have appeared in the London Times, The Washington Post and many other publications. He is now an attorney living in Atlanta."

Booked Up


Harper Logan - 2016
    But when a harsh review of her latest book is published by her rival Serge Faletti, Cam's sense of loyalty sends him marching to Serge to demand a retraction. "I can't let anybody see who I really am..." Serge is supposed to be writing the follow-up to his big hit detective novel, but the words aren't coming. And knowing that his rival Madeleine is plotting against him isn't helping. When he meets her assistant, the bookish, cardigan-wearing Cam, he is caught off-guard. How can he be so drawn to someone who should be his enemy? He is so worried about his reputation that he can't admit his attraction, even to himself. "I can't trust you, but I don't want to spend a minute without you..." How can you trust your feelings when the man you're with is your worst enemy? Things are getting real between Cam and Serge, but Madeleine's scheming threatens to tear them apart before they have a chance together. Can Cam untangle himself from his boss and let himself be free to love? And can Serge put aside his worries over what the world will think if he is with another man?

Outline of My Lover


Douglas A. Martin - 2000
    In the sleepy town of Athens, Georgia, a young man goes off to a college miseducation and is drawn into a world of rich vicarious living. The unspoken relationship between this adolescent and his luminous rock star boyfriend fast becomes the marking tale of world tours and plush continental hotel rooms. However, the relationship falters under celebrity's harsh, shape-shifting light. Real life fills in the outline of the boy's expectations.

Opposing Briefs


Ian Finn - 2018
    a straight man?He's my opponent in the courtroom.He defends the same scumbag criminals I'm trying to put away.Plus he's my rival in the New York City Marathon.We're training for a competition between our firms.And, unlike me, he's not even gay.So, why do I find myself so damn attracted to him?His cocky swagger and alpha attitude drive me crazy.But I'm starting to have as much fun running with him as arguing against him.I want to show him what other oral skills I possess.Could there be room in our completely opposite worlds... for each other?AndrewAm I falling for my enemy... a gay man?My whole life, I've done everything right.Now I'm a big time criminal defense attorney.But sometimes everything I'm living seems like a lie.I can't figure out why I'm so attracted to my opposing counsel, Logan.I've never felt such feelings for another man before.He's handsome, athletic and intelligent.I try to tell myself I just want to beat him in court and on the race path.But deep down I know I want him to take me to the bedroom.That would ruin my career, and life as I know it.If I let the real me come out for him, will love destroy us or strengthen us?Opposing Briefs is an opposites attract, enemies to lovers, coming out/ out for you steamy male/male romance. A full length standalone novel of over 50,000 words with no cliffhanger, it combines humor, heat, heart, and a very happy ever after.

The Lost Prayers of Ricky Graves


James Han Mattson - 2017
    Five months later, the sleepy community is still in shock and mourning. Ricky’s sister, Alyssa, returns to confront her shattered, withdrawn mother and her guilt over the brother she left adrift. Mark McVitry, the lone survivor of the deadly outburst sparked by his own cruelty, is tormented by visions of Ricky’s vengeful spirit. Ricky’s surrogate older brother, Corky Meeks, grapples with doubts about the fragile boy he tried to protect but may have doomed instead. And Jeremy Little, who inadvertently became Ricky’s long-distance Internet crush despite never having met, seeks to atone for failing to hear his friend’s cries for help.For those closest to the tormented killer, shock and grief have given way to soul searching, as they’re forced to confront their broken dreams, buried desires, and missed opportunities. And in their shared search for meaning and redemption, Ricky’s loved ones find a common purpose: learning to trust their feelings, fighting for real intimacy in a world grown selfish and insincere, and fearlessly embracing all that matters most…before it’s gone from their lives.

Pee-Shy


Frank Spinelli - 2013
    . .Frank Spinelli grew up on Staten Island in the 1970s to Italian-born parents who viewed cops and priests as second only to the Pope in infallibility. His mother, concerned that her son was being bullied at school for being "different," signed Frank up for Boy Scouts when he turned eleven. For the next two years, Frank's life had two realities--one lived in full view of his family, and the other a secret he shared with his Scoutmaster that he couldn't confess to anybody.Eventually Frank went to college, established a thriving medical practice, and found a home in Manhattan. But the emotional and physical effects of his past continued to shadow every aspect of his life. Then a shocking discovery gave Frank the opportunity to overturn thirty years of confusion and self-blame--for himself, and for other boys like him.Pee-Shy is a remarkable story of overcoming the unimaginable to choose resilience over darkness, and love over loss."A devastatingly heartbreaking look at life after childhood abuse, with wit and piercing insight that can only come from a place of brutal honesty." --Josh Kilmer-Purcell"This is a memoir about a grown-up boy's generous--and healing--heart."--Kevin Sessums"This is one of those horrific, true stories that Dr. Spinelli so courageously reveals. With raw honesty he makes us understand that monsters do exist and a child's innocence is precious. His story is one of too many, but maybe, this one will help open our eyes a little more and shine a light on a taboo subject that many chose not to see or believe." --Whoopi Goldberg

The Belmont Hotel, Room Service


Pauline Allan - 2016
    Your room is ready. Please don’t hesitate to ask for anything. Our staff is always here to please. I like the bartender. Sexy, hot, ass looking fine in those blue slacks, Neil. I have forty-eight hours, one conference, and a private sauna. Time to order some room service.

Getting Sacked


Van Cole - 2021
    The College Quarterback And The Bad Boy United Against Their WillsMy senior year takes an unexpected turn with my mom’s remarriage.A new stepbrother who hates my guts and a new stepdad who becomes our new coach.To make things worse he hires my stepbrother Dean as his assistant.I’m playing on unfamiliar territory.Dean has a tatted and toned figure, with a dark, intimidating gaze.I can’t tell if I want to prove myself to him or if I want...something more.I feel a connection between us I can’t ignore.I think he’s starting to feel it too.A big part of me wants to find out, and another part is too scared.I’ll be laying it all out there if I want the answer and there will be consequences.Getting Sacked is a standalone Gay First Time Football Romance with a HEA and NO cheating!

Source


Mark Doty - 2001
    They offer a complex, boldly colored self-portrait; their muscular lines argue fiercely with the fact of limit; they pulse with the drama of perception and the quest to forge meaning.

Class Reunion


Linda Hill - 1997
    But when she comes face to face with her first lover, she is overcome by the rush of desire that threatens to ignite the dangerous flames of rekindled passion.

The Boys of Bellamy: The Complete Series


Ruthie Luhnow - 2017
    This collection includes all four of the Boys of Bellamy novels. 
Still Water
: Max and Finn are best friends and teammates, but when a drunken hookup takes them both by surprise, everything changes. Max is straight, right? So why can’t he stop thinking about Finn’s lips on his? While Finn struggles with the pressures of competitive rowing, Max fears losing the person who means the most to him. As the rowing season heats up and graduation looms, the future has never been so uncertain. Will their relationship drown under the pressure or can they find a way to stay afloat? 
Daybreak
: Hopeless romantic Jamie is thrilled when he meets Bennett, who’s hot, enigmatic, and, most improbably, into Jamie. It’s just his luck, then, when Jamie discovers Bennett is the professor he’s supposed to be working with all semester. Jamie can’t resist trying to unravel the mysteries of Bennett, who’s brilliant and damaged and sending Jamie very mixed signals. Bennett claims he’s not interested—but then what was that kiss in his office all about? 
Bloom
: It took Rory the entire school year to work up the courage to kiss Milo and only a minute to completely embarrass himself. But nearly ten years later, when Rory runs into Milo sitting alone at a bar—handsome and mysterious and devastatingly sexy—Rory is determined to not run away this time. Milo cares more deeply for Rory than for anyone he’s ever known. But Milo’s also damaged and skittish. How can he trust that Rory won’t hurt him like everyone else has? 
Riptide: When Drew and his supposedly straight teammate, Andy, start hooking up in secret, Drew quickly falls for the more vulnerable side of Andy he sees. Their relationship in college fails, but Andy and Drew are given a second chance when they reconnect at a wedding several years later. Though they’re both ready to be open and honest about their feelings, there’s just one problem—they now live hundreds of miles apart and lead completely separate lives. Will they be brave enough to ask for what they want before it’s too late?

Danny & Jude


A.E. Ryecart - 2016
    He knows Jude loves him back — as his best friend, even as the big brother he never had. But not as the lovers Danny secretly longs for them to be.Jude dreams of a man to call his own. A man who will hold him close and love him forever. A man who will keep him safe and not break his heart. If only that man came with a cocky grin, a sparkle in his eyes and went by the name of Danny… but Danny’s his best friend, so that’s never going to happen.Maybe a stolen kiss is all that’s needed for Danny to find the courage to open his heart, and for Jude to realise the man of his dreams has been right there with him all along.

The Last Romeo


Justin Myers - 2018
    His six-year relationship with Adam has imploded, he hates his job making up celebrity gossip, and his best friend Bella has just announced she's moving to Russia.Adrift and single in loved-up London, James needs to break out of his lonely, drunken comfort zone. Encouraged by Bella, he throws himself headlong into online dating, blogging each encounter anonymously as the mysterious Romeo.After meeting a succession of hot/weird/gross men, James has fans and the validation he's always craved. But when his wild night with a closeted Olympian goes viral and sends his Twitter-fame through the roof, James realises maybe, in the search for happy-ever-after, some things are better left un-shared. Seriously, wherefore art thou Romeo . . . From Justin Myers, author of sensational blog The Guyliner, this razor-sharp and cringingly candid account of one man's quest for The One is as sad, fearless and funny as dating itself.

From This Moment On


P.J. Trebelhorn - 2010
    Three years later when offered a business opportunity she can't pass by, she decides it's finally time to return home—even though she’s far from sure of her welcome.Katherine Hunter took a different path in the face of loss, throwing herself into her work to fill the emptiness in her heart. She doesn't have the time to date, even if she wanted to. But then fate drops Devon on her doorstep—literally—and Kat begins to question if the life she has painstakingly rebuilt is really enough.Despite Devon and Kat’s powerful attraction, the past stands between them—preventing them from taking a chance on the future. Will what is growing between them be enough to convince them that from this moment on, anything is possible, even love?