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Amanda Lepore - 2017
    Through all the insanity in my life, there was only one thing I could control: myself. On the outside, obviously, but on the inside, too. I focused on not letting other people’s opinions have any effect on me whatsoever, and that’s how I’ve lived my life ever since.” —Amanda LeporeSpend an evening getting intimate with Amanda Lepore, the internationally renowned walking work of art and New York City’s reigning queen of nightlife for three decades. Paving the way for today’s “trans revolution,” Amanda is one of the world’s most famous transsexuals. In this poignant and revealing memoir, Amanda takes off the makeup, peels back the silicone, and reveals to the world the woman she truly is, all with a sense of divine certainty, humor, and charm. “I hate everyone but Amanda Lepore.” —Miley Cyrus “Amanda is pure heaven on earth, a dream come true. I adore her!” —Francois Nars “Amanda is truly a living work of art. I’ve never witnessed such devotion to the art of high glamour. In my book, she is a glambassador of the very highest order, a true fascinatrix!” —Dita Von Teese “As an Icon, Amanda is one of a kind because of her unique and singular look in the art of fashion. She has established herself as the most original and glamorous image in the world of transgender.” —Patricia Field “Amanda Lepore is a self-creation that governs her own splendid reality.” —Steven Klein, photographer

Roping His Hero


Sue Brown - 2021
    Some return, most don’t.The Cowboy Daddy is in Hollywood…and totally out of his depth in a town where everything and everyone is shiny and on show, including the BDSM club.But one sub doesn’t fit the mold. The huge submissive in the mask is ignored by most of the Doms. He’s too big and too much of a challenge. But for Ronan, he’s perfect.Why does Aidan bother? Another night on his knees being ignored. At least his humiliation is hidden behind the mask.The Cowboy Daddy doesn’t blend in with the smooth and polished Doms. He’s a rough diamond. But he ignores the sweet twinks and asks for Aidan. For one night, Aidan is with someone who treats him like a precious gem.But Ronan receives an unexpected job offer and Aidan gets a bodyguard. Only one of them knows the truth. What happens when the truth comes out? Will the Cowboy rope his hero, or will he ride off into the sunset?

A Woman Lost Box Set: Books 0-2 [A Clueless Woman/A Woman Lost/A Woman Ignored]


T.B. Markinson - 2016
    The graduate student’s former lesbian lover is blackmailing her, and not even those closest to Lizzie know the full story of their abusive relationship. And when Sarah, the beautiful woman of her dreams, crosses her path, Lizzie isn’t anywhere close to revealing her skeletons. Sarah knows Lizzie isn’t telling her everything. But when she falls hard for the socially awkward Lizzie, Sarah isn’t sure if the growing relationship is worth the mess of lies. The harder Lizzie tries to keep Sarah from the truth, the more endearingly clueless she becomes. Can Lizzie keep her secrets and her new love at the same time, or will she lose both in one fell swoop?A Woman Lost Box Set includes the first three novels in a series of contemporary lesbian romances. If you like quirky characters, smart fiction, and a dash of humor, then you’ll love T.B. Markinson’s sexy series.

Saving Gideon


Mary May - 2013
    His skills and kills are legendary across the Heavens. However, his heart is starting to grow cold toward the Lord and everyone else. The Lord see's this so he has Gideon reassigned to a guardianship over a little girl named Charlotte, that Gideon will nickname Charlie. The plan is while watching Charlie grow the heart of this battle worn warrior will learn how to love again.

San Francisco


Suzanne Falter - 2016
    And he’s having a midlife crisis.Charley gets suspended by the Agency after forgetting to pay his taxes. Only days earlier, yet another marriage proposal has been spurned. In his grief and confusion, Charley befriends Electra, a high-powered Manhattan socialite-turned-dominatrix rebuilding her life in San Francisco. Then he meets Frankie, a disgruntled lesbian police sergeant who has been demoted by the SFPD for being a whistle blower.Together they uncover a Christian fundamentalist’s lethal plot to destroy the ‘hedonists’ of San Francisco. Yet, neither the SFPD nor the CIA will take the threat seriously due to the trio’s outsider status. Can they get anyone to listen to them? Or are they on their own? Find out in this funny thriller filled with San Francisco’s spectacular scenery and inimitable, quirky characters.

The Art of Being Normal


Lisa Williamson - 2015
    Two secrets.David Piper has always been an outsider. His parents think he’s gay. The school bully thinks he’s a freak. Only his two best friends know the real truth – David wants to be a girl. On the first day at his new school Leo Denton has one goal – to be invisible. Attracting the attention of the most beautiful girl in year eleven is definitely not part of that plan. When Leo stands up for David in a fight, an unlikely friendship forms. But things are about to get messy. Because at Eden Park School secrets have a funny habit of not staying secret for long…

Lingerie


Jason Collins - 2019
     Braden’s not the straight guy I thought he was. He’s cut from a different cloth, and he fits me like a glove. We have one important thing in common: lingerie. He’s my designer, and I’m his model. Braden knows exactly how to handle the contours of my body—especially the tight spots. But his brand needs a publicity boost, and he’s asking for my marketing expertise. When sales start to rise, it means my time with Braden might be coming to an end. I can’t be a consultant for Braden’s love life, especially not if I want to be woven into it. His designs are revealing, but I want to see every last inch. BRADEN: In my line of work, business can be pleasure. Sales are down, but Alex’s gorgeous assets are keeping me up. He not only knows how to market lingerie—he knows how to wear it. And he’s proposing a deal: he’ll help bring my shop back to life in exchange for a custom set of lingerie. The best part? He wants to model it for me. Alex is the first man I’ve met who likes to slip into my designs, and they fit him perfectly. I’ll make sure they’re a snug fit, but if they’re too tight for Alex, I can always make some hands-on adjustments. The only thing standing between us is silk. Note to readers: This is an extra spicy standalone MM romance, heat level 10. Readers can expect several steamy scenes that will leave you breathless.

Write Me In Red


Ashley Amy - 2020
    We go and do, but are we living? I have not been. I know this. After a series of terrible events, I let myself check out. I had a list to finish. Loose ends to tie. But that was it. Those things kept me going. In my survival mode, I moved through it. I excelled at what I needed to do, in order to get me to my final destination. But, one issue blindsided me. A person I never thought I’d see again. What happens when I come face to face with a familiar face from my past? Lime green eyes that held my attention as he held my body, now haunted me. He made it his mission to punish me for things I didn’t understand. In his classroom, I became his target. There’s a funny thing about going numb. You never fully remain in that isolation. No matter how lost your soul feels, there are things that make you feel again. Little things come, that trigger you into falling head-first into the past. Memories never erase permanently. We’re left with the shattered pieces of who we were. Neither of us were the same. The two kids who fell in love, were gone. Too much happened during our time away. I’m Logan Dae. A cancer survivor. A girl who tried to blend in after life spat her out. Too bad Alec Teal wanted me to break even more. Second chances might be written beautifully, but ours festered too much hate. One of us was sure to burn up under the tension. The other would light the match to do it. The only thing keeping me stable was my other professor. How would the tables turn when all the secrets came out? Professor Cole wanted to learn them all. How would he feel about my tormentor after he learned? WARNING: Mature content for readers 18+. This story follows a girl with suicidal thoughts and ideas. There are triggers for bullying, as the title suggests. Chapter 16 has a M/M scene. The chapters in the past view are labeled 5 years ago... If it's not labeled, it's back to the present.

Top Shelf


Allison Temple - 2019
    Well, not really, but he might as well be. Job gone, home gone, self-respect gone, and no one even seems to notice. The only person who really sees him is Seb, the artist who lives above the used bookstore.Seb haunts the edges of Seacroft in search of beauty. He knows how to excavate the hidden value in abandoned things--whether it's in the pages of forgotten books or in Martin's stuttering attempts to rebuild his life--and transform them into works of art.Two lost souls, Seb and Martin discover the strength they need to face eccentric townies and their dysfunctional families together. But as friendship sparks toward something more, neither man wants to risk what they've only just found. It takes two to fall in love, but it will take the whole community to bring their beauty to life.Top Shelf is an 81k slow burn friends-to-lovers MM romance. It features an anxious professor, a drama queen artist, a bookstore that might be haunted, and a full-blown heart-eyes HEA.

The Dom Prize


Mina J. Moore - 2013
    But there is something missing in her love life. She doesn't realize what it is until she finds herself in the arms of a lover who shows her how to embrace submission. In doing so, Gia finds the ultimate pleasure but will that be enough?This book is for mature readers 18 and over.

Stripped


Edie Harris - 2013
    One actor’s highly public arrest for possession of narcotics is another actor’s lucky break, right? Declan’s eye is on the prize, and no one will keep him from proving to the producers that he’s a consummate industry professional.No one, that is, except Fiona O’Brien. After a time in the spotlight that nearly destroyed her, Fiona wants nothing more than to fade into the background and do her job as part of the studio’s hair-and-makeup team. The last thing she needs is a hotshot actor with a panty-melting Irish accent and killer smile messing up her careful plans.There’s nothing careful about the immediate attraction between Declan and Fiona, and soon that initial spark of lust is sizzling out of control. But when things get complicated behind the scenes, they’ll have to decide if their movie magic should stay on set…or if their love can survive away from the silver screen.

Paul Takes the Form of a Mortal Girl


Andrea Lawlor - 2017
    He studies queer theory, has a dyke best friend, makes zines, and is a flâneur with a rich dating life. But Paul’s also got a secret: he’s a shapeshifter. Oscillating wildly from Riot Grrrl to leather cub, Women’s Studies major to trade, Paul transforms his body at will in a series of adventures that take him from Iowa City to Boystown to Provincetown and finally to San Francisco—a journey through the deep queer archives of struggle and pleasure.

Holding Still For As Long As Possible


Zoe Whittall - 2009
    Revolving around three interlocking lives, it offers, among other things, a detailed inside look at the work of paramedics, and entertaining celebrity gossip.

Dark Daddy


Esme Devlin - 2019
     He took me so he could play with me like a doll. He took me so he could break my spirit, my body, my mind, my heart. I wouldn’t be broken so easily. But how do you fight a man who feeds off your resistance? Who gets under your skin? Who becomes the centre of your world? Now I call him Daddy and bare my body and soul to him. Sometimes the only way to fight is to break Daddy, before Daddy breaks you. Dark Daddy is an ultra dark, super steamy romance featuring an older HUGE man and a younger TINY female. It has dark scenes that some may find disturbing and lots of bad language. It’s only recommended for readers 18+. If you like spanking, dirty talk, and dominant Scottish villains then you will love this two part series! HEA and no cliffhanger.

Blood From a Stoner


L.A. Witt - 2017
    Immortality? Not all it’s cracked up to be. The job? Way more headache than it’s worth, especially on those increasingly frequent nights when he’s overworked and hangry. With a deadline looming and his hunger growing, he’s nearing the end of his tether. Then relief comes from an unexpected source—Zane Webber, the hot programmer Greg’s been fantasizing about for two years. Disregarding company policy, Zane lets him feed, but kind of forgets to mention he’s got some weed in his system. The next thing Greg knows, he’s high as a kite… and he likes it. He wants more. Except how much of that high is secondhand weed, and how much is the electric and undeniable chemistry between him and Zane?That chemistry draws them back to each other again and again, and suddenly their downtime is full of sex, smoke, feeding… and emotions. The only problem is that Zane’s a mortal. If they’re in this for the long haul, then Greg has to either turn Zane or accept a future of watching him wither and die. Greg doesn’t want to lose Zane, but he also can’t stomach condemning him to this “life.”And if they can’t find some middle ground, they’ll have no choice but to let their love go up in smoke.